fancy restaurant
got invite from mail
no friends
just point
no utinsels obsereve parsley for guidance, he just picks it up
can barley pick it up
butter cream icing
meat very metalic
pull away at the hard shell
right after the egg waiter shows up
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they never stop smiling
pars has come and gone 3 times by now
the sved up piece of meat isnt good chared on the outside and raw right underneath
after wards clean self with horrible paper towels
when done cleaning waiter comes by asking for payment
no cas
4th 5th time not proccessing his face
drive home
feel awfulsick
why didyou g tgere
you missed essages from work,ignore
nect day rive by restaurant almost vomit
tell land lord eep the stuff im GOREquit job
Drive into the nigh
feel far enough
get htel
newjob new flat
new therapy, think of meat/cake/egg you sick
5 years later still in therapy like new town
get a broshure for habitat
tink ok
it nice weird psa
talking bed?
afoid lounge the lighting
new chef
going diw stares you pased the guy
oh bo....
you walk passe in fear
star down bar
cover eyes panik attack st bar
jim offer meal you fear accept
he sees your fear
he leaves
who’s coming in.fear
heleft. religf
jim coes back with coverd dome
you forgot the dome
you refused to accept it u sprint out have panic attack in room
pack up
go to habit say yur leaving
go hone
its bee a week
you haf fone back to work
talk therapy
its flowr kid at doo??
they sigh, you don’t kow
you take bouquets on tabe
nice pretty
no note
i didn’t buy then
sniff i recognize
takes awhile
you let yourself remember
the flowers at the restaurant
cant get rid of them
they might see, or fk
cant sleep
grab keysjacket wallet
go to store
get backing essentials mint “dont think to much
go to self checkout from fear
someone parked in front of you you wanna walk bast him w/ determination for clourse you keep walking
stare down at grown walk past
maybe another few years
but mint in oven,too much but its better
remnants parsley
helooked
happy saw his wring
dint go to work a week
therapist says fold out for mea week
frliwer almost daed still mint
1more day
getting calls from work
when you wake uo your in the restaurant