#dontmindmason

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Sometimes (a lot) I feel like the only thing that I am really good at is making other people happy

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Something So Rotten

I can not imagine what life is like,

without imagining I’m alone.

People always end up walking out,

no matter the love that’s grown.

I know that I’m still on their minds,

that they think and

that they care,

because I think of them almost every day

ghosts, floating in the air

It’s not as if my friends have drown’d

or died some other way...

It’s not as if they’ve cut me off

due to malice or to hate….

It’s not as if it was intentional

‘twas time for them to move on.

There's no artful thing about it:

we’ve all been there, we’ve all been abandoned.

trying to make something, anything beautiful

out of something so rotten,

ought to be a crime.

I just wanted all of you to know,

past, present, and future loves;

my back door is always open.

You need only knock:

I will open it,

I am here.

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Stranded in Twilight

Too tired to stay awake; to alive to fall asleep... stuck amidst the twilight, floating in between.

Is it because I'm lonely, I lay unmoving there: or should Exhaustion be given his due: or should I even care.

Sleep is sleep no matter Her form, and Life is everywhere... the problem is that I am torn, My conciousness They do share.

In thought I dream of labours, given from mentors, taken home... Of Her too I do ponder, Though each night I lay alone.

I wish to spend all hours, wrapped up in Her embrace; I fear She cannot stand me... of my visage, She's afraid

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It's 1:30 am and I've realized a big problem in my life and I'm pissed also don't yell at me for this I probably worded something wrong it's late/early and I'm emotional (aka why I'm writing this) please be civil in reprimanding me ANYWAY My biggest fear as an up-and-coming male is becoming a fuckboy, and I think it's inhibiting my relationships with literally everybody I hate that any time I try to make friends with a female, I know that when I go to ask her about herself, she thinks I want in her pants I hate that a body part or image is so oversexualized that it can't be complemented civilly without making the complementee squeamish or upset I hate having to cross the street when a woman is coming towards me to make sure she feels comfortable I hate having guy friends who make rape jokes and think it's ok The state of fucking society right now is poisonous for everyone, if you can't see that then go soak your head

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Honestly don't care who the fck you are don't treat me like I'm 5

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apparently im only interesting when you’re horny 

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you try so hard and they still let you down

so why try

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Free tea day at McAlisters has me dead