Aug 25, 2024
Found myself drawing some things I miss about my old Halloweens
for a decade+ I’d go to a multi-day house party to build out an elaborate home haunt. Something I lost in the divorce
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Found myself drawing some things I miss about my old Halloweens
for a decade+ I’d go to a multi-day house party to build out an elaborate home haunt. Something I lost in the divorce
Today was a weird day in my ftm journey. I've always loved femininity, but I spent so long trying to distance myself from it as much as possible, that it no longer feels like something for me, and that sucks. The clothes that were made for my body feel so foreign to me now. I've felt foreign to myself, and this has made me realize that I never truly wanted full, cis passing masculinization from my transition. I've struggled existing as the man I've become because it's not the way I want to exist, but the way I feel I'm expected to, for my safety.
I think I want to spend some time figuring out how I can be less harshly masculine, and reintroduce some femininity into my existence. I want to be softer, delicate and beautiful, like the dress was. I want to be able to wear dresses like that and feel sexy, curvy, and feminine. And I want to be less hairy.
I love being a trans man, and I also love the woman I was, the one who loved dresses that showed off my curves. She was me and will always be me, my love of femininity has never changed, so I don't know why I denied it to myself for so long.
I journaled for a bit at the tables at ‘The Lab’ after getting ice cream. 📝(@lilsboobthangs)
More fanfest journaling cause life got in the way
August 27, 2025
fountain pen
Gold Leaf for Journals and Collages
Not really gold leaf but it is a good substitute for Momigami paper. Acrylic ink and a paper bag are all the materials you will need. Cut it into any size and decorate your journal and collages with a touch of gold. It is simple and easy to make based on the tutorial from jocelynbenford on Instagram. This really works!
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a few nice pages from my journal
Ballpoint pen doodles I did while waiting in the car