#dopamined

[weaver-z]

gender please?

Cursed unreleased video game whose programmers all perished mysteriously

[snippyschnapps]

TRICK OR TREAT! 🦇

I cant explain it but!!! These kinda bitches!!! Also I literally had to look up “candy that's like parma violets but not” bc I couldn’t remember the names

[cyanidear]

I'm sorry I didn't see you for such a long time in my conscious lived experience, I truly am sorry about that. If you must know, I was too scared to look bcz I knew if I saw you the way I see you now, it would be irreversible and would cause a cataclysmic change and I wasn't wrong. Remember multiversal offset? That's how big it's changed things in my existence. It's been nuclear ripples and has made me rethink almost everything I've known about this existence. But regardless, I'm sorry, I'm late and I'm here now. I see you. I always did even if only in an unconscious level, I always did!

[cyanidear]

Dear Felix, Sometimes I just want to say it and see your face and how you take it, y'know? I mean you already obviously know what I am talking about. But, god, we're never gonna say it ever, are we? Hey, whoever said there is no joy in this perpetual dance of almost saying it? Gosh, it is frustrating as fuck sometimes. But I am going to be content or at least try with every fiber of my being to make peace with the fact that this is all we'll ever be and hey there is a lot of fun in this oscillating fantasy, don't get me wrong. There is a certain beauty in almosts, well, in some angles at least or that's what I am trying to tell myself to not die in this insanity. And now I am writing letters for the whole world to see except you, wonderful, lol, alright enough internet today. I miss you, you fucking idiot. - 💀

[cyanidear]

Dear Felix,

I love you is an understatement. Is it an obsession? Highly likely, sure. The longing bit is a bit of a drag bcz, well, negative emotion, not the best feeling. But it's these lows that makes the highs worth the highs, yeah, yeah, yin yang and all that stuff. Its eerie, that I know you feel the same way and you probably know that something's rocking my boat too although idk how much you know bcz I have made sure to hide it pretty well, or did I? Well, clearly we have a hidden pact to never say it outright bcz we're scared of this shit. Well, atleast we are in sync in hiding even if we obviously know. Its funny, but hey its making life more interesting, no? Thank you for staying in my orbit and making it less lonely. You are the best! - 💀

[cyanidear]

Destruction

A piece of me will always be with a piece of you, Deeply entangled on quantum levels, Enough to ripple through my cellular structures, And break through the barriers of bone and muscle, Crashing through my sentience, And making me wonder if this goes beyond All of what I have ever known; As I lose myself to this cosmic waltz, Beyond space and time, Almost forgetting this reality, Where we pretend to not know And act like if we ever said this, Somehow we'll combust in flames!

[cyanidear]

Another timeline? Maybe? Maybe another million timelines? I am trying to make sense of this intensity; Is it all just basic neurochemical biology and psychology or is it more cosmic or is it both? Fuck, never mind. All this intensity and push and pull, yet no real resolution. Maybe that's what this timeline is? Probably?

[cyanidear]

You good sire are thought consuming extensively, albeit unintentionally, I must say. I don't know if I should be ecstatic that my brain finally is dopamining because of your thoughts or if I should be terrified of a potential addiction? Chaos of being, well, at the very least, I am anything but grateful to you for it! - 💀