#doratheauror

[archivedforslaugher]

“you don’t have to let me in, just know that i’m still here.”

HE KNOWS THIS. he just wishes knowing this was enough. the doubt he walks around with feels like cement in his shoes , and every time he tries to step out of it , it solidifies further. and maybe , if he knew how to put all of this into words or a hint or a key , he would offer it to her. 

but the problem isn’t letting her in. the problem is GETTING HIMSELF OUT. 

❛ it’s not that i don’t want to. ❜

it’s more honest than he thought he could be. and even if he can’t meet her eyes , he thinks it must mean something. it must have some value , some proof of progression , and he holds that close to his chest. it’s possible she could look into his eyes and see everything he can’t say. but he won’t look. he doesn’t know how. and the more he considers it , the heavier his head grows. 

part of him wants teddy to wake up so he can escape this conversation. 

part of him wants to pull that one string that will unravel him. 

❛ i - i don’t know how. because i don’t know what you’ll find in there. and - i don’t think you’d like it either way. i don’t think i would either. ❜

[softcursed]

&. @doratheauror picked HEADCANON + GABY’S EXPERIENCE OF THE WAR.

the war, for gaby, was viewed largely from a distance. i’ve touched upon it in some threads, but the gist is this; everyone gaby cares for, aside from her parents, is in immediate danger by either being a member of the order, attending hogwarts or simply living in the british wizarding community.

fleur and bill, for example, are active members of the order. gaby’s penpals attend hogwarts. gaby’s experience of the war is constant worry and anxiety. communication is limited because owls can be intercepted at any minute, so on gaby’s end, attending beauxbatons and living in her family home in france, everything is pretty silent. she never knows whether anyone is alive or dead. she learns about the situation at hogwarts at christmas, a whole term after the trauma began, and it devastates her.

gaby is an incredibly empathetic person, and she also suffers her own traumas extending from the triwizard tournament ( which is a completely different post. ) she has severe anxiety and everything is horrible. she will never ever compare her cozy experience of the war in france to the survivors, but that’s exactly why she helps create the inter-school penpal system post-war. she knows how much having someone to talk to helped her, and she only lived it from a distance.

the single shining light in a sea of darkness is that gabrielle knows viktor is safely away from the war, staying in bulgaria at the request ( demand ) of fleur. at least one person she loves is safe.  (  @courfleur  /  @manichaeisms.  )

[furryproblem]

Tonks: Undress me with your words!

Remus: There's a spider in your bra.

[ofblackskies]

@doratheauror um EXCUSE ME why is this a thing?

[rosewrists]

"All I'm saying is that clumsiness isn't genetic and therefore, not my fault." [ TO MY SON! ]

I missed u gandalsophie || always accepting

                                                       ❝ oh mama no. ❞

                                                       most people might wait until teddy’s leg is safely out of the drainpipe before having this conversation. the lupin family are not most people. ❝ if clumsiness isn’t genetic then we both have shockingly bad karm – OH MERLIN !! ME BONES — ❞ he grits his teeth and grips his mother’s hand as the mediwizard gives another yank onto teddy’s still-stuck ankle.

[archivedforslaugher]

❛ i don’t wanna be alone. ❜

FLORENCE + THE MACHINE SENTENCE STARTERS / accepting.

IT EATS AWAY AT HIM. each time he sneaks away in dead of night , panicked and paranoid , seeking escape and isolation. it ails him. each time he’s left at the mercy of a letter and his own wandering thoughts. cowardice has never suited him , and he was never good at running away , but now ? now , he’s good at it. he’s too good at it. he’s so good at it that he is terrified he doesn’t know how to do anything else.

but sometimes , like when teddy falls asleep on his chest and breathes against his neck or when andromeda looks him over more than once as if to ensure he hasn’t been out bleeding for another world or when tonks looks at him like he’s not a burden when he sits at her kitchen table . . . yeah , sometimes he thinks that maybe he can do something else. he thinks that maybe he’s ready to be brave again. 

❛ i don’t want you to be alone either. ❜

he has a responsibility. and no matter how many times they tell him that it’s okay it’s okay it’s okay ! it isn’t. not for him. it can’t be. the lecture he’d delivered to teddy’s father all those years ago still rings in his ears each night he’s away , and if it’s not that , it’s teddy saying his name and holding him tight around the neck as if he just KNOWS harry won’t ALWAYS be there. even if he should be. even if teddy deserves that. 

even if she does too. 

❛ you shouldn’t have to be , and - and you won’t be. you won’t. i’m - i’m not going anywhere , not - anytime soon. not again. ❜

[killedbyvoldemort]

✦

incorrect quotes with our muses / @doratheauror / accepting

Tonks :  do  you  want  to  hang  out  this  weekend  ?  Dorcas : generic  excuse.  Tonks :  did  you  just  say  ‘generic  excuse’  ??  

[padmatical]

+ @doratheauror

“---When did you know? That you wanted to become an Auror, I mean?”