#dot; vent

[dotalicious]

guys i dont think im ever gonna be able to write anything again ..everything is gone in my mind all of the sudden

like robocop..

i think i came to tumblr and did what i had to do. spread my izuku gospel. i think now there are many people that write izuku (be it bc i influenced or not) (feel free to tell me there is still an izuku hole and i’ll stay maybe idk)

i just have no horny thoughts anymore and . idk … it just feels Dry on the blog too… is it because i havent posted anything? or is it bc of this damn shadowban…

i wanna make a new account and try again but one) i feel lonely on tumblr sometimes & i think it’s just from my own mental stuff and also how like… i really only like deku and i’m not a Sexual person if that makes sense… so it makes it hard for people to talk to me + keep producing smut content and two) i have nothing to write right now and i don’t wanna push myself for my own mental health cause its just a hobby even though its fun AND i dont want to get shadowbanned on this hypothetical new account… wtf….

idk. i feel guilty just lingering around doing nothing

will u guys remember me . have j cemented myself in deku smut tumblr history?

ill miss u guys.. i dont wanna leave i like my little friends in my phone..

[dotlusional]

STOP ASKING FOR PART TWOS I HATE YALL

STOOOOOOPPPPPP

STOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

STOP

STOP

STOP

STOP

GO WRITE WHAT YOU WANT TO READ AND STOP BOTHERING AUTHORS YOU RUIN THE JOY OF HOBBIES FANFICTION LOBBYISTS

ok i calmed down but. seriously. contrary to popular belief asking for a part two is not motivating and actually insinuates that you were unhappy where something ended and feel unsatisfied/it's unfinished aand you know what maybe something is unfinished WHO CARES WRITE IT IN UR BRAIN

[dotlightful]

I HATE MY MOM SO BAD

ARGHHHHHHH

I HATE MY MOM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I HATE MY MOM

[dotlightful]

to my dutiful 8 dotlings on this sideblog

because of the way i handle things in all aspects of life, i let writing and blog life affect me and my mental health bc im a perfectionist and Crazy

i am going on hiatus... but in truth, i haven't really liked writing since january... maybe even before that

i never planned to be popular and i definitely wasn't prepared for some parts of it

if i feel really inspired, i may write under a different name but there are more things in life to indulge in and i am just out of ideas

could be long hiatus could be short

goodbye...

also i deleted tumblr on my phone so if you want to text me errrm ask for my discord and ill get to it eventually... (mutuals)

[dotlightful]

ive been holding it in but i feel very lonely on tumblr to the point that it acts as a deterrent to writing… not that anyone is mean to me but i don’t have that many collaborative mutuals? like no one really comes to me to just talk about writing and idk if im just too nd to understand or if its the way i present myself… is it because of the way where i don’t speak unless spoken to? why does no one wanna be my friend?

and whenbit comes to dotlings and anons it’s a bit stranger bc it feels like people put me on this pedestal and therefore are scared of talking to me naturally… 😞

to touch on the deterrent to writing, it’s like… i get a lot of interaction AFTER i post a fic… so in my mind im like oh i have to write to get friends… and then i get stressed out when i dont get a lot of interaction and i feel a pressure to write and… explodes… i wanna be chill about it but im mentally ill….

😞 my chud life i wish i didnt care so much…

of course im thankful for yall here tho… my frens…

[dotlightful]

lowkey im washed st this writing thing

[dotlightful]

why is tumblr so stressful

shudders

theres too much negativity in the air

[dotlightful]

NEVER TAKE A UPPER DIVISION PHILOSOPHY CLASS IN SESSION A ONLINE

THE MATERIAL IS GOOD BUT STANDARDIZED TESTS LOCKDOWN BROWSER IS EVIL

MIND U ITS EVERY WEEK AND I HAVE OTHER CLASSES OH IM A CHUD

well. at least my graduating year is when i get a b+ hopefully it does not happen again. i just need to get a 3.8~ (low a’s) for the this sem and next to finish with a 4.0….