[ID: a cartoony digital drawing of a pigeon. it has mostly cool offwhite feathers, with gray wings with dark bar patterns on them, and white flight and tail feathers. its eyes are blue, and its beak and feet are pale peachy orange. it has feathers that flow upward on its chest and the back of its neck, forming a crest. its beak is short and points downward. /end ID]
Today's prompt was a dove. How can I not love doves?
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Warmth and tenderness blossomed for me in the cold, and this work was born in them.
It is the personification of peace and prosperity in life, which has passed away anxiety and sorrows, and in the figure - a warrior who has found his way home, was healed and lives in prosperity, deprived of his part - but who has found another in the same hour.
The drawing, in essence, is part of a larger project - but at the same time in my eyes it was completed by itself. The man depicted on it is one of my original characters, as well as part of my arcana. You can read about the meaning of the card with which this work is connected, and the history of the drawing below, meanwhile, I hope you will find the contemplation of the work itself pleasant ~
IV - The Emperor
The card of the emperor is the personification of reliability and stability in existence, a wise guiding hand that gives a feeling of confidence and prudence. Meanwhile, my emperor is not so much a crushing force and a powerful conqueror, personifying authority and power over a reader, but a good and knowledgeable mentor, a wise ruler, gently and confidently leading you by the arm. The personification of real power, concluded in the comprehensive peace and stability of the nature of the one who possesses it. My ruler is in many ways connected with other, in essence feminine, cards. It has a reflection of the empress, a sense of completeness and peace, prosperity and prosperity inherent in her card. Priestesses - like Odin, he sacrificed a particle of himself in order to gain the wisdom and knowledge of the hidden. Card of Strength - as the personification of crushing tenderness, conquering restlessness and cruelty within oneself, and the Sun - the immense, bearing the prosperity of light, pleasure and joy of life.
The image in this picture is very old for me - the drawing was dark, hidden full of anxiety, the man on it, excised with wounds, relieved clutching crimson flowers in his hands - his victory, the end of wars and battles, the birds next to him were restless and scared, but tightly pressed. He was a warrior who found his home, taking his first breath in the new world. Now that same motive has become completely different in my eyes - now it is in its own way extremely full of romanticism - pleasure and love, and the man is still a warrior, but already having completed his journey, he is not alone, but basking in the sun. My brightest work, partly not suitable for the general concept - but my emperor is not so strict and authoritative, he is loving and wise, and personifies the pleasures and joys of existence, and his role does not burden, but completes its essence.
He is luxurious and modest at the same time, his smile is thoughtful, but affectionate. His eyes are tiredly closed, and he is deprived of an important part of himself - but he is full, breathing with blush and goodness. Flowers, a sign of his pleasures and prosperity, but not of flesh - not roses, and not a sign of a completed war - not poppies, as it was before. These are begonias whose white petals were touched by a scarlet - a sign of purity and conjugal pleasures, which he is deprived of in his own way - the desire to be a patron and protector borders on the dangerous power and jealousy that are depriving him of peace. He is not proud and not cruel, but the fear of losing control absorbs him, he is sadly alone in his gentle patronage, unable to see his equal in another person. Birds-spirits are his subjects, bathing in his care and adoration, but defenseless and tiny in his eyes, deprived of faces and freedom, although he sees and feels similar, having a hidden bond with them - feathers wandering in the air and hidden under his blindfold belong to him.
The work was pleasant and full of lightness, it gave me a feeling of completeness and inspiration. It differs in many respects from the general nature of my work - perhaps for the better, perhaps not. To everything else, it was originally conceived as a horizontal drawing, which is somewhat confusing and inconvenient. Meanwhile, I got a pleasant experience, thank you very much, everything is great ~
I always liked doves. Back in my childhood when I visited a friend in another city I found a dove that, for no apparent reason, sat down on my shoulder and didn't want to fly away. People stopped and took pictures of me and the dove. And as crazy it may sound, she didn't leave as I drove home and stayed for almost a week until she finally decided to go. I never forgot that. People in Germany don't think good about doves and call them `flying rats` which makes me sad. Around 5 years ago a dove, which I wanted to feed, got killed by a car just in front of me. And again, it may sound strange to you - but that´s the day I stopped eating meat. I cried on the streets and people stared at me as I was crazy. It made me realize that I was a hypocrite, I couldn't bear seeing this dove dying in front of me this terrific way while I ignored other animals dying for my habits and comfort. So
I had to change. Now, two weeks ago I was sitting in a park feeding doves when this special one came. And I was thinking about one of my latest posts, where I talked about the small actions we take that, can cause such a bigger thing. A little girl must have lost her hair tie, no intent, no big thing. But actually for the dove it is, the hair tie was wrapped around her foot and she had problems to walk. I was concerned that it will restrict the blood flow to her feet but she didn't let me help her. I´m still concerned. I hope this little thing wasn't too boring or in any way offending to you and you like this painting~
White birds are easy to color, but they all need outlines or backgrounds so my background erasing apps don't erase the whole thing. Ha ha!
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