#dr. derek shepherd

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Dr. Derek Shepherd from Grey's Anatomy has been put in a blender

"Both hatred and affection. But also he's a stupid fucking Alexander Hamilton coded man who needs to stop kissing interns and instead needs to be violently put down /srs /aff"

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Start Again: An Addek Fanfic Chapter 1

Notes: This is a fanfiction based on characters from the TV shows, Grey’s Anatomy, and Private Practice. This rewrites parts of the second season finale of Grey’s Anatomy. But this fanfiction tells an alternate story of what happens after Derek and Meredith have sex in the exam room at Seattle Grace hospital. Instead, it asks the question: What if Derek and Addison didn’t end things after Derek cheated on her with Meredith? What if they decided to give their relationship one more shot? This story and chapter were originally posted on Archive of Our Own on November 30th, 2021. This has been edited to include headings and images.

Start Again: Chapter 1

He was disgusted. Even though he initiated the kiss, he just felt disappointed with himself afterward. While he knew he had feelings for Meredith, his disgust with himself just overcame him. He was now starting to realize what it must’ve been like for Addison when he caught her and Mark in their bed together. While they got dressed, he heard Meredith say something about not being able to find her panties but Derek was quiet. So quiet it freaked her out.

“Derek!” Meredith yelled, snapping him back to reality.

“What?” Derek said softly. He looked up but avoided her eyes. Instead, he stared past her at the door.

“What does this mean?” She asked. Instead of responding, Derek looked down to the floor.

“Derek!” She called out again, moving her head around, trying to get him to look her in the eyes. When he finally looked at her, he sighed, sad eyes and all.

“I’m sorry,” he muttered. It was stupid. It felt stupid. But it’s all he could muster to say right now.

“You’re sorry?!” Meredith yelled back. When Derek couldn’t say anything else, she looked back at him, defeated, and stormed out of the room, passing Callie in the hallway.

Derek Stays Back a Minute

After she left, Derek turned around and leaned with his hands on the counter as he held his head low. He was disgusted with himself and found himself fighting back tears. Before, when he saw Meredith dancing with Finn, all he felt was anger. Jealousy. But after he got her, he felt sick to his stomach. And all he could think was that he didn’t know what to do now. How he’d face his wife, the one who’d done everything to make him happy. The woman who’d done everything in the past few months to earn his forgiveness. And if he weren’t so damn stubborn, he would’ve accepted her apology. Instead, he continued blaming her for one mistake. And he made the same one. Meredith wasn’t a one-night stand, she wasn’t revenge. He was in love with her. Emphasis on the was. Because now, all he felt was shame.

After taking a few deep breaths, he knew he couldn’t stay there all night. Addison was still at the prom. But he also knew he couldn’t go back out there. Not after what he did. He couldn’t look his wife in the eyes and pretend like everything was alright. Everything was not alright. It was pitiful. But he couldn’t stay in this room for another minute. Because all it did was remind him of his mistake. Of everything he just threw away his marriage for.

Derek Leaves Addison at the Prom

Derek Comes Home

When he got back to the trailer, Derek took a deep breath as he held his hand on the doorknob. When he opened the door, he found Addison sitting up on the bed, back against the headboard, and her knees up against her chest. But more notably, she was wearing Derek’s jacket from last night. And when she saw him look up at her, she looped Meredith’s panties around her index finger that she’d left on the bed beside her and held it up. And Derek felt his stomach drop even further.

“So, are you done?” Addison asked. “Are you done hurting me back yet?” her voice cracked just slightly. And Derek could tell she was trying to be strong. The way she always did.

“Addie…” Derek started. “I’m so sorry,” Addison put the panties down back on the bed and took the jacket off her shoulders, revealing her Yale hoodie underneath. And Derek knew it was bad. She only ever wore her Yale hoodie when things were bad.

“So where do we go from here?” She asked, getting up from her position on Derek’s bed.

“I don’t know,” Derek said softly after a beat.

“Does this make us even now?” Addison asked plainly. Derek looked up at her, confused. Did she really think he did this to get back at her? To make them even?

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it’s not like Meredith hasn’t dealt with the love of her life being locked up before... 👀

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 3/? Fandom: Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Addison Montgomery/Derek Shepherd, Meredith Grey/Derek Shepherd, Addison Montgomery/Mark Sloan Characters: Addison Montgomery, Meredith Grey, Finn Dandridge, Derek Shepherd, Richard Webber, Adele Webber, Mark Sloan, Naomi Bennett, Sam Bennett, Cristina Yang, George O'Malley, Alex Karev, Izzie Stevens, Preston Burke Additional Tags: addek, maddison - Freeform, MerDer Summary:

AU: What if Derek and Addison didn’t end things after Derek cheated on her with Meredith? What if they decided to give their relationship one more shot? Takes place after Derek and Meredith have sex in the exam room in Grey's Anatomy 2x27 (the prom episode).

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 8/? Fandom: Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Addison Montgomery/Derek Shepherd, Meredith Grey/Derek Shepherd, Addison Montgomery/Mark Sloan Characters: Addison Montgomery, Meredith Grey, Finn Dandridge, Derek Shepherd, Richard Webber, Adele Webber, Mark Sloan, Naomi Bennett, Sam Bennett, Cristina Yang, George O'Malley, Alex Karev, Izzie Stevens, Preston Burke, Dell Parker, Pete Wilder, Violet Turner, Cooper Freedman, Charlotte King, Carolyn Shepherd Additional Tags: addek, maddison - Freeform, MerDer, charcoop Summary:

AU: What if Derek and Addison didn’t end things after Derek cheated on her with Meredith? What if they decided to give their relationship one more shot? Takes place after Derek and Meredith have sex in the exam room in Grey's Anatomy 2x27 (the prom episode).

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August: An Addek/Maddison Fanfic Chapter 2

Notes: This is a fanfiction based on characters from the TV shows, Grey’s Anatomy, and Private Practice. This is the story of Derek, Addison, and Mark in med school. In it, other characters will pop up like Sam and Naomi from Private Practice as well as Weiss and Savvy, who were in an episode of Grey’s Anatomy (2×08). I’d also like to add that I know virtually nothing about medicine or med school. So I won’t be adding too much medical jargon. Just know that there will probably be mistakes there moving forward. This story and chapter were originally posted on Archive of Our Own on October 20th, 2021. To better understand this chapter, it’d be best to read the first chapter before reading this. This has been edited to include headings and images.

August: Chapter 2

He was cute. Addison could at least admit that. But he’s also clearly that guy. You know, the one that can turn on the charm and get any girl he wanted. And maybe knowing that is flattering in a sense but Addison definitely didn’t want to be one of those girls. You know, the one that’s swept off her feet by the first guy that’s interested in her just to get ghosted after sleeping with him. No, I’m definitely not doing that, Addison thought. Plus, there are plenty of good-looking, available guys that aren’t just looking for a hookup.

As Mark got back to the dorms, he found Derek arranging his books onto the bookshelf near his bed. Watching him, he dropped onto his own bed and took a bite out of the granola bar he bought.

“Hey, you find anything good?” Derek said as he finished unpacking his books.

“Yeah, I did actually,” Mark smiled thinking about the redhead he’d met at the vending machines. Derek plopped down next to him, grabbed his snack, and took a bite.

“This is disgusting,” Derek said with his mouthful. He leaned over and spit it out into the trash can near the bed.

Mark and Derek Reminisce

“No, not that,” Mark said, laughing. “There was a cute redhead by the vending machine. As for the snack, I should’ve just gone with the potato chips but I was a little distracted,”

Over the course of their entire friendship, Mark had always been the womanizer. So it was never a surprise that he got distracted by another girl. But Derek had learned to keep his distance from his many conquests. The longest relationship Mark had ever had with a woman lasted maybe four months before he dumped her for almost no reason at all. And the only reason why it lasted that long was because Derek inadvertently became friends with her. To this day, Derek still kept in touch with Jess. Even if they avoided talking about him altogether now whenever they did talk.

And while Derek was classically handsome, he was much more of a serial monogamist. But he was ready for a fresh start. His last long-term relationship had been at Bowdoin but after he and Mark got accepted to Columbia, it ended. But things would be easier here. His childhood home was less than an hour away and he always preferred New York to Maine anyway. He always knew he’d come back to the city so he always knew that whatever happened in Maine, stayed in Maine.

“You get her number?” Derek asked.

“Not yet,” Mark sounded optimistic. But then again, when was he not when it related to one of his many female conquests?

Addison’s First Day

mFinally, the first day of classes came and Addison was prepared. She bought her textbooks two weeks in advance, researched her professors as much as she possibly could, and had every school supply you could think of in her bookbag. So some would say she’s overprepared. Okay, most people would say she’s overprepared. It’s the first day of classes and she had a full bag of textbooks and school supplies, most of which she knew she wouldn’t need. But she liked being prepared. Overprepared. Maybe it made her seem like a crazy person, maybe she was a little crazy. But it’s precisely what would make her a good doctor someday, she thought. She just had to get through med school first.

Addison met her roommate, Laurel, briefly but they really hadn’t talked much since they first moved into campus last week. But what she did know was that she was a journalism major and seemed to be much more carefree than Addison. But that was just based on what she observed thus far. Laurel didn’t stay in the room nearly as much as Addison did. Apparently, she transferred from NYU with some friends so they went out during the day as Addison toured the campus.

Today may be the first day of classes but Addison already read the first few chapters of her textbook. Again, she was overprepared. But she liked to think it just meant she was driven and determined to succeed.

In her first class of the day, Organic Chemistry I, Addison sat down in an empty seat next to a petite blonde that was pulling out her notebook and pencils as she sat.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 7/? Fandom: Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Addison Montgomery/Derek Shepherd, Meredith Grey/Derek Shepherd, Addison Montgomery/Mark Sloan Characters: Addison Montgomery, Meredith Grey, Finn Dandridge, Derek Shepherd, Richard Webber, Adele Webber, Mark Sloan, Naomi Bennett, Sam Bennett, Cristina Yang, George O'Malley, Alex Karev, Izzie Stevens, Preston Burke, Dell Parker, Pete Wilder, Violet Turner, Cooper Freedman, Charlotte King, Carolyn Shepherd Additional Tags: addek, maddison - Freeform, MerDer, charcoop Summary:

AU: What if Derek and Addison didn’t end things after Derek cheated on her with Meredith? What if they decided to give their relationship one more shot? Takes place after Derek and Meredith have sex in the exam room in Grey's Anatomy 2x27 (the prom episode).