-Personal Log-
-XX.XX.2558-
It strikes me, from time to time, how isolated we’ve all been.
From one another, since the augmentations. I think I’ve seen John… Two, three times in twenty some odd years.
They don’t even know, I wager, my pseudonym. What I’ve done, the papers I’ve published.
Sometimes I think it’s out of fear. They think back and feel that foreign sensation of terror that there but for the grace of G-d go they, that it could have just as easily been them in this chair and me standing proud. Uncharitable, of course, but no less true.
It stings more than I thought it would, being stationed so near yet so far from at least three of my childhood compatriots.
Perhaps I’ll be the one to take the first steps forward in arranging a little reunion.
Or perhaps I should leave them be.
They've made their lives, what they're allowed to have of them, that is - and they've made them without me and the others in them. And it's hardly fair to them, really, that I word it the way I do. We've made our own lives as best we could, after all, and it's hardly their fault that we can't quite let go of what could have been.
Ah decisions. It's too damn late to be thinking this way.
... Of course it's either think or try to get acquainted other other parts of this ridiculously oversized ship.