#drafts or whatever

[st1txhs]

rapebaiting when you end up actually getting pinned down this time by the dangerous attention you were trying to just tease, begging for them to stop. saying "i didn't mean it," "please i'm a virgin," and "i've never gotten this far before," but it's just incentive for them to teach you a fucking lesson of covering up your whore body spilling out of your intentionally tiny clothes if you don't want to get used like the easy cheap slut you look like

[st1txhs]

"smile for the camera" as i'm snapping polaroids of you laying curled up sobbing, smeared in blood, piss, and cum, completely broken with a dull, disassociated look in your eyes still full of tears.

[st1txhs]

taking advantage of my dad.. always finding an excuse to sit in his lap, nuzzle a little too close during snuggles, innocent little quick pecks on the lips.. when his guard is down, grinding against him until i feel him growing before he even realizes what's happening. whining "shh no i need this" as my hands run over his pants, turning around in his lap to face him. concerned and worried look plastered over his face but when i'm pushing my tongue past his lips, i can feel him holding back a moan as his face becomes desperate for more.

[st1txhs]

"you okay?" check in in a condescending tone OHHH BUDDY STRANGLE ME <333

[st1txhs]

gonna shower listening to music imagining my face is getting slammed against the wall while my dad rapes me #YIPPIE

[st1txhs]

i feel like i should be a topic amongst more relationships. you like my content? awwh, that's sweet!! does your partner know? i hope so. do you both perv on my accounts? you should. you should talk about my stuff and touch each other to it. tell me about it even so i can build on it! get closer together by exploring my kinks. i hope i fuel both of your depravities and make both of you worse for each other.

[st1txhs]

when you vaguepost on tumblr about wanting to be used but genuinely mean it and it's a cry for help because it's been too long except people don't offer because they can't tell if you're serious or not and welcome them busting down the doors of your dms so you just continue to post about wanting someone to take advantage of you trying not to look like an attention whore

just know i'm here. btw. as a pansexual switch. just. think that should be reiterated. btw.

[slightglitches]

A dream:

There were explosions in the distance and at first we ignored them, until we had no choice but to flee. We hijacked a white SUV and someone grabbed the driver from his seat. I kicked him with strength and good aim I didn’t know I had.

My parents called to find out where I was. They had heard about the explosions. Where am I? I asked. You’re in Montana, someone said. Or was it Dakota? North or South? I had to tell my parents I was fine by way of saying goodbye.

Everyone hates America, my brother likes to say.

A dream:

We found ourselves stranded on the moon. There was a small civilization of cats that walked and behaved like humans. They did their best to avoid us.

I learned that you could walk like normal on the moon, but when someone let go of you you’d shoot straight off into space. Someone let go of me. There was a moment of panic as I flew into oblivion, until I saw how beautiful everything was from that distance. I saw all the colors and textures of the Earth. I saw a planet that I realized was Venus. I must have felt sad seeing how close I was to home. I must have been so used to getting flung around that things never seemed that far. I could have tried to figure out how to get home. Instead I took a picture.