#dragons luck

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Writing is weird because. Okay we got a lead for this story I love. She's a woman. No she isn't sorry idk how gender works. We've got secondary protagonists. They're male. I gave them all the attention and now they're my favourites, not her. They're not male either. Idk how gender works. Should I feel bad about this? I'm going to write gender dysphoria into the story. It's so typical that I prefer the male characters to the female character. Such a fandom thing. I should've stayed off the internet. I hate this story. I'm part of the problem. I still can't comprehend gender in a way that matters. And if this book ever gets published, the fans are inevitably going to draw her beautiful even if I told them she isn't, draw her with an arched back and a skinny waist when all I said was "she looks tired." I love her. I can't stand the fact that I don't love her enough. I feel awful about it. Can I put this male character in a dress? Do I have the strength to write "his skirt" without feeling like part of the problem? He's not even male. Why is this so important to me? I ask a friend. They tell me I'll eventually write enough interesting female characters to atone for the sin of caring too much about my male ones. I've completely lost the plot and don't understand that they're joking. Is it homophobic if one of them is fem and the other one's masc? I'm gay and trans, gender fucked twice or thrice over. Why am I even asking myself that question? I'm going to change this guy's pronouns to it/its. Is that objectifying? I use it/its. Why am I asking that question? Why can't I love the story enough not to make any mistakes? Where was I? Oh, right. There's a dragon. It's blue. I like dragons. It's a nice dragon.

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I drew these very quickly cus I'm nauseous but yeah here's Roach (she picked that name herself) she has not slept in her whole life (which is why I drew her sleeping) and would make a great human rogue for DnD, she likes to run (from things too, yes) and is so tired she forgot all her other personality traits (someone please help her) and Fever, who is a LITTLE BABY DRAGON WHO'S A GOOD DRAGON YES YOU ARE! YOU ARE! oh you can speak. You're as intelligent as a very well mannered eight year old. Oh. Sorry.

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This is Hob, he has exactly two facial expressions and severe anger issues, also a cyborg, approximately 2m tall, kills people for money (and out of habit,) no longer feels pain and is incredibly codependent on his partner Fen (it only works because it's mutual.)

yes? no?

too tropey. definitely homophobic now.

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who the fuck is Fen?

Voting ended onApr 22, 2023

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@lawinez I am forever in your debt for caring about my guys. You of all people should get the references being made here. (Clears throat.)

Hob and Mortimer Fenrir are assassins by trade, and are very passionate about their job. At least, Fenrir is. Hob doesn't really think that far. They're rather well known in their little part of the world, and rumours of them spread throughput the common folk as well. However, those rumours tend to get one or two things seriously wrong. For example, the name "Mortimer Fenrir" is quite unique and people tend to want to credit that to the person they perceive as the leader, the bigger threat, which, in this case, is Hob. People tend to miss the fact that there's two of them all together. But two of them there are. They're just very good at coworking, and at picking their battles. Well, up until the point they're given a new commission; find and catch the dragon running lose in the city. Dragons are tricky creatures. They have a strange ability to bend reality to their will. And Hob and Fenrir have a complicated past and an even more complicated relationship, both of which remain un-dealt with and unspoken. This case proves, to say the least, their hardest yet.

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Hi! May I have 😎 and 🙈 for all your ocs?

Thank you!

🙈 What, if any, aspect of your OC is a little slice of you put down on paper? A little quirk, personality trait, mannerism, view of the world, etc.?

Roach is very tired all the time and has some trouble perceiving things because of that, like her brain is full of static. Hob feels very disconnected from his body, and can't find it in himself to associate it with himself, more than in a technical sense. Fen is just very emotional overall tbh. Annd Fever is just a little creacher (tiny) and a little guy overall (with wings) (tiny guy.)

😎 Pick one thing about your OC and describe it in detail. (their smile, their eyes, the way they walk, their voice, etc.)

I imagine Roach's hands very clearly. She doesn't eat as much as she should but is naturally broadly built, so it only shows up under her eyes. But her hands are square, and rough and her palms are always sooty, it's worn in, she spends so much time climbing. Hob is similar actually. There's a point about that in one of the last scenes, how Roach can't help but notice they both have similar hands, his stained just like hers, with the nails bitten and pulled down to a bloody mess. It makes him feel just a little bit more human to her, which is uncomfortable to realize as he still very much wants her dead.

As for Fen, he tries to incorporate some level of drama into almost everything he does, for fun. How he moves and talks. But he walks with a limp, and he can't hide it, which bothers him. Hence, he's learned how to swagger with a limp, and that together with how much he gestures makes for a person that, while quite short in himself, takes up space. He likes it that way. Fever has... Just really big eyes. Cute, sure, but like their paws, a bit disproportionate to the rest of them. They're yellow slit pupils, and they blink one eye at a time, and very rarely, so imagine a big old puppy reptile blank staring at you and... Yeah.

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Hi! I've got 60% for your OC ask game!

Picked Fen cause I feel like talking about Fen

60%. Are their interests and likes socially appropriate? Hell to the no he mostly likes murder, wanton chaos and teeth that aren't his own.

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Hi! 17, 25 and 26 from your ask game, if you please?

Of course!!!

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. The world the story is set in works like this: eveyrthing is pulled inwards. Because dragons in this universe have the ability to influence reality with almost no rules, they tend to attract, well, stuff. Magic, energy, just things happening. They surround themselves with creation and destruction, chaos. But ever since the dragons stopped flying and crept down into the nest to hide from the world, things have started to move towards it. And now eveyrthing there is, the vast majority of the flora and fauna, the people, the culture, the civilization, the magic, has all gotten bunched up in one spot. Very few things exist outside the outer walls of the city they call Chaos. It gets weirder the further into the heart of the city you go. This is more subtext than it is text in the story though, so it feels nice to talk about it. The story does explore the fact that people in Chaos can sort of feel the city, that it affects itself and premonitions/gut feelings/a sort of sixth sense is an actual thing you develop after living there, or at least inside the inner gates, for a while. Roach and Hob are both really good at this. Fen is not.

25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story? Not a detail per se, but Fenrir sometimes acts pushy and a bit annoying, exercising power on purpose in the hope that Hob, usually the subject of this, will push back, preferably really hard. He's testing him... It's his excuse for flirting. This of course goes right over the head of poor Hob who really doesn't understand subtextual social stuff at all. Mostly it just makes him confused. No they will never solve this. No this also isn't in the actual story so far. Might add, who knows.

26. How do you get into your character’s head? How do you get out? Do you ever regret going in there in the first place? Never! I love my characters an unfair amount. They're like my best friends. I actually imagine that I talk to them a lot, let them hold imaginary conversations, try to imagine their voices and body language as clearly as I can. Every time I write a line of dialogue, I read it in their voice in my head automatically just to check that it sounds right. When I have issues with their characterisation I talk it over with them to try to solve it. Odd, sure, but it works!

Thank you for the questions friend.

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