IT MAKES ME SICK TO THINK YOU

@bugslaststraw

|| AIN'T HAPPY IN YOUR SKIN || TJ, they/it || if I don't get to write regularly I start taking 1hp dmg like a poison effect (I also draw I guess) || sso sideblog: @vilda-ravenhill || talk 2 me about: Star Trek (TOS, DS9) Gorillaz, Hollow Knight, JJBA, Disco Elysium, TF2, Discworld... || special interests: internet horror, psychology, storybuilding/writing/acting/etc || there be gore/blood here (sometimes) || I ALSO AM A SOCIALIST‼️there will that scare them away

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Don't be afraid to talk to me or just spam posts you think I'll like at me I swear I'll answer you as soon as the execution dysfunction decides I get to do so and I love to talk and listen about nerd shit so hhhhh also please don't send me copypastas no matter how nice because I will cry

Ps. If some stupid shit happens to Tumblr I'll go to bluesky and I'll be bugslaststraw there too

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#''bbugseye taps'' for writing #''bbugseye does art'' for drawings #“yappity” for negativity #“bbugseye does art that moves” animation! wowee #i have a lot of fandom specific tags so looking up “tf2” “grillyz” (for gorillaz) or similar will net results #“circle comics” for comics about. me. like. life documenty stuff featuring a sona of sorts #“tj in space” << star trek #and as mentioned all my sso stuff is on the sideblog

funishment-time

yea

dragongirlsnout

10 000 dollars a day to every autistic child who grew up into an adult with a weird relationship to eating because parents can in no way be trusted to respect children's issues with food

ceevee5

ocdiscourse

teaboot

Can I be honest with yall I don't want to hear SHIT against cishets at pride this year

teaboot

"But it's not FOR them!!!" The biggest military power in the world belongs to a christofascist nation overseen by a felon found guilty of 34 federal crimes and has greenlit a gestapo with more direct funding than the entire military of Canada for the purpose of ethnic cleansing. Let Hetero Jessica throw some biodegradable glitter at a municipal parade

teaboot

At this point if anyone is trying to exclude anyone benignly pro-queer from a pro-queer space I'm just going to assume you're a fed or something idk like something something destabilize the movement from within or whatever

wizardarchetypes

i think avoidance is such a little-recognized ocd compulsion. all the time i talk to people with ocd who are like "i was always having intrusive thoughts about using kitchen knives and harming myself or others but i'm okay now because i just stopped using knives ever 👍 so i'm good now"

and i'm like unfortunately i have bad news.

wizardarchetypes

if you don't know why this doesn't work, the issue is that ocd never stops when you implement a compulsion. it evolves. today you've "solved" it by never using a knife again (and losing access to an important cooking tool, thus limiting an aspect of your life) but in a few months or a year it'll be that forks are dangerous too. and hey, isn't it risky to use the stove? avoidance will even begin to manifest in places you might not recognize.

the point is that OCD compulsions are never solutions, they're actually the problems. the intrusive thoughts SEEM like the problem and the compulsions FEEL like the solution. and that's how it getsya.

skyrimhusbandmaterial

when you find someone who's equally unwell about The Character

pocketss

Ummm she's literally sensitive :/

aphel1on

"character doing a c+ job of breaking the cycle of abuse" is such a crunchy dynamic forever. what if i'm giving my all to give you a better life than i had and i'm succeeding but "better" just isn't quite enough. what if my blind spots and deeply ingrained trauma and inexperience mean that you will be indelibly scarred by me despite my best efforts. what if my abuser's influence still bleeds through at times because i know nothing else. what if i go so far in the opposite direction to avoid it that i hurt you in ways i couldn't have anticipated. what if my undeniable love and unforgivable shortcomings came part and parcel with each other. what if your love and gratitude and resentment and pain came part and parcel too. what if we both knew you deserved better but i was all you had. what if we had to move forward and reckon with that. what then

#my mom irl

wheelie-sick

sometimes people experiencing psychosis and/or mania will come up to you on the street and talk in confusing or upsetting ways. your job is to either have a regular human-to-human conversation with that person or politely leave. your job is not to call 911. do not call 911. you might kill that person if you call 911.

wheelie-sick

I don't even have the energy to screenshot and respond to your tags- what the actual fuck is wrong with you? "the cops are scared and rightfully so" "mental health calls are the scariest for cops" OH so this isn't about the safety of psychotic & manic people this is about piggy feelings?

and no, actually, this is not USA specific and no, actually, people from other countries should not ignore this post. police violence and sanism weren't invented in the US and they are certainly not unique to here. if you (or anyone) thinks that this bullshit doesn't happen elsewhere then you are not listening.