A very adorable cat, to make you smile :)
ummm... a confession, right!
I'm kind of overwhelmed with all of those events going on right now :(
I love them!!! I love them so so much!!!!!!
I love drdtober, I love the christmas one, I love the character weeks...
I have so much art I need to do.
The amount of passion projects I've started with drdt is INSANE.
I... draw and often feel like I forgot how to anymore.
Like I've strained myself in some way.
And I cannot look at progress the same way anymore.
Technically I've done a lot, right?
Waaaaayy more than needed for me to just subconsciously feel like I've done nothing.
But sometimes drawing feels like it's a...
I can get closer and closer to finishing a piece, but I think about how (that's just one) and (I have 35 more of those) and (which one will I tackle next?)
and there's this Charwhit art I've started on July 12th and sometimes it feels like my art has changed since then.
and it's weird to tackle it.
And with all of those events, right?
I WANT to participate in them.
I wanted to participate in drdtober so MUCH.
I feel like I want to participate in the other ones too, but I'm so swamped it's uncomfortable.
I told myself it's fine if I skip out on drdtober, because haha... what if I did it in january?
it'd be a funny joke right, drdtober in january?
that I get to skip out on it, because I can--- if I want to I can just do it some other month, that way I don't have to feel so miserable over how the days just pass and pass and pass and I didn't do anything.
to relief myself of the pressure of having it NOW.
I'm not good with deadlines, and I'm terrible at them with a chaotic mind focused on too many things.
This feels strangely relieving to admit to.
It makes me feel weirdly calm.