Dear Doctor, have you ever wished you were dead? I do sometimes. A lot. But not dead forever, just... dead until it gets better. Until things get better yeah? My head is swirling right now, and Im really stupidly confused about everything. Ive just moved states, which is horrible. And to be honest Doctor, I'm lonely. I'm really horridly lonely. And sometime I'd rather be dead, just for a little while. But I cant have that. Im just sort of... Sad.
Dead until things get better….hm. Who wouldn’t like the sound of that? Sleep away all the bad things in life…like they never happened. Relish and live only for the good! Sounds like the perfect existence to me.
But then I suppose if everything in your life was fine and dandy, how would you be able to appreciate anything? Well, how would you know what it’s like to feel so blissfully happy that you shine brighter than the sun? Or bask in the peacefulness after a storm? You wouldn’t. Your life would simply be boring. Nothing to compliment anything and you would go about your existence with no sense of courage, bravery, joy, because how could you experience any of that without the obstacles to get there?
So yes, you have moved somewhere where you probably don’t really know anyone, where lonlieness seems to be your only companion…but there is so much good that can come of it, that you are only choosing to see the bad.
Out of your loneliness will come the opportunity to meet new people. Wonderful, brilliant people who will want to meet you. It always takes a bit of courage to talk to someone you don’t know, but that’s how amazing friendships and bonds form! You have a chance at a whole new pool of humans! The possibilities of who and even what you’ll meet has just risen exponentially! It’s scary but so very exciting at the same time.
Out of your sadness will come great joy, even if it’s not right away. You are embarking on an adventure, one with sorrows and passion and pleasures and discouragements. As with any adventure, you will need to triumph over the obstacles ahead of you, but it will be so very worth it in the end, it always is.
And from your life will come all of the possibilities you have ever had, and ever will have. Death is a permanent state. Stagnant in the sea of the universe. But oh your life! You bring so much hope, so much potential, just by being. Your very existence sets forth a series of events in the universe, all set by just being alive.
Things get hard. Trust me, I understand. You lose people, you lose faith, but it all works itself out in the end. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant. Now you tell me Madison, would you really rather be dead?