#drinkerofdrinks

[tolivetolearntogrow]

the apology that took too long.

i know it probably doesn't matter anymore and that you probably couldn't care less, but i should've said i'm sorry. i'm about a year too late. i never should have hurt you, i never should have walked away. i was scared, i fell back into my comfort zone and fell back into my past bad decisions. i drank my poison and the karma i received was well-deserved. some days i wished i would have drowned in that bathtub so you never would have met me. none of this would have ever happened. i was a shitty person and i didn't deserve a friend like you. i hope you've been better off without me. i know i should've said this a long time ago, but i'm so sorry.

[sunnieg]

man,

in about a month it will have been a year since I met you. 

when we decided that we were no longer good in each others lives, for about two days i was so devastated, i didn’t know how i was going to live my life but soon i learned to put one foot in front of the other and after that I never really looked back honestly. 

but here i am, listening to constant headache on repeat, and my heart kinda feels the same way it did when you left me.  I think what hurts the most for me, is knowing I could’ve spent the rest of my life with you and been so happy. there’s no doubt in my mind that you’re one of my soulmates, i mean obviously, it was finalized with a coke can( that i still have of course)  

i know you’ve got a new girl now, and if she makes you happy and treats you right, then i am so happy. i’ve got a boyfriend now too, and he’s the longest relationship i’ve ever had. hes so different from you, almost polar opposite. i mean you played bass in a punk rock band, and he drops base as an edm artist. You dont date the type of people who take molly, and he can get it for me every weekend.

im not sure the purpose of this, i guess the purpose of this is that, youre out there somewhere in ohio and  you read this, and you remember and you tell me that everythings okay and i was worth it.  

[drinkerofdrinks]

"Hey Sunnie, Here's That Song That You Wanted"

Well mosquitos aren’t the only thing that’s biting up in Michigan

My friends think that I’m doing well, I think that I’m just drunk again

A feeling not felt before, another note found on the floor

A lingering of incense smell creating my own private hell

A chasm of darkened bliss, the question if you still exist

Or fell into my endless abyss, at least I’m pleased as piss to say

I’m sorry

  A notion I must confess, I’m drowning in my ignorance

Interesting for half a while, my broken words once made you smile

Now grieving deep inside, hopeful at the sign of life

The accident that couldn’t wait and the song I’ve written way too late,

I’m sorry

sunnieg