#drinking:

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The dopamine I get from pretending I’m going to do a task, imagining I’ll do a task, picturing myself doing a task, but never ever doing any task

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Me to my girl just now: I’m doing an okay job today doing things even though they make me feel sick

Me immediately after: Oh I forgot to take my make doing things not make me feel sick medicine this morning

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Good morning. I stayed out late last night for the first time in a few years and woke up at nooooon. We are hanging out today too, so I have to get myself together.

— breakfast

— go get coffee

— shower

— get dressed

— change sheets

— get money

— get gift

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— a mtg

— u mtg

— k mtg

— s mtg

— court note

— call c

— call j

— figure out d

— call r

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Today:

— breakfast

— go to pet store, state store

— massage

— take down recycling

— take down trash

— call girl

— budget spreadsheet

— leftovers dinner

— bath?

— wash masks

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I got breakfast with L today and have showered and have to start work. Today I want to:

—get breakfast

—shower

—cancel gym

—subscribe to my cases

—read work stuff

—put away clothes

—wash clothes

—hang clothes

—fold clothes

—put away clothes

—dinner with mg

—wash filters

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Yesterday was a day and today is too! Not in a bad way, in a factual way. Yesterday we were scheduled for zoom training all day, but finished at 11:30 (how can you be this wrong?) but I was tired out, so I didn't do much the rest of the day. Today I'm going to do some work to make up for that, but do it slowly. I did wash some of my masks yesterday (which has been on my to-do list for awhile) and did a tiny bit of desk organizing and washed all my cups, so I'm proud of that stuff. This morning I made my own breakfast and washed the dishes after. I'm going to put a load of laundry in, and then start my work. I've been wanting to clean the floors downstairs, but roommate said they'd do it later, and that's even better. Maybe I'll clean the railing or the kitchen instead. If I have the energy. Priority today is research. Research and.. leaving my space better than I found it, by whatever increment.