[CW: NSFW content; mentions of dubcon and self-harm.]
lotor has an automaton sex doll that is shaped like his ideal version of himself and contains his thousands of years’ worth of sex memories and experience. he made it when he was about 5,000 years old because he thought he was the best at having sex in the universe and he was the only person who could truly give him the experience he was looking for. he devised a plan to construct the ultimate dildo with altean memory implantation technology--and thus, the sentient sex doll was born. but of course, it didn’t look just like him. it looked like how he would rather have looked, and he tweaks its appearance as his tastes change.
his use of the doll is no longer purely sexual, but rather has turned into a form of emotional self-harm. for example, he initially used it to perform degradation kink on him. but the doll knows a lot of things about him that quite frankly it wasn’t meant to find out, and so when he tells it “degrade me” it verbally abuses him using all of the things he hates most about himself. now he no longer asks it to humiliate him when he wants to get turned on. he pretty much just uses it when he’s in a bad state and wants somebody else to like…………anti-validate how worthless he thinks he is.
he also does body worship on it to remind himself how “inferior” he is compared to it. as he traces his hands over and praises all of the doll’s good points, he silently thinks to himself how he is the complete opposite and how far he is from his ideal. the doll reminds him of this as well, bending down as lotor sucks its cock and whispering, “just remember that compared to me, you are nothing.” tears fall from lotor’s eyes as he continues to fuck, but he keeps going--lest the doll berate him for not giving it what it “deserves.”
though he was right that he was the best at sex in the universe (well from his perspective anyway) he literally has such an unhealthy relationship with the doll that he has considered destroying it while it was turned off several times. but each time he does so, he sees a certain look in its unseeing eyes--and he is swiftly reminded of his place.