#dumb scribbles

[crystaleyesd]

do you think even God lives in fear of what He's created?

[the-idol-and-the-author]

[zillyeh]

i just think theyre friends

[angsty-teacup]

So I’m out of town and still waiting to get settled down, me and my friend were drawing little dumb scribbles and sending them to each other and I like this little Seam I made so here

[redphlannel]

[bridoesotherjunk]

Nart sketches during dins while I was on vacation

--I forgot I didn’t post these. I just noticed my number of drafts was higher than I remembered.

My brother’s friend got Shino mixed up with fucking Kabuto and I cannot fathom how. He suggested I draw Shino and he was like “No, he has a ponytail.”

[the-poets-are-dead]

I used to ask friends of mine to describe me like an author in a book would. One friend said I have a spine like steel, And unfortunately this makes it too difficult to sit still. I hate these pills that are meant to make me feel normal, but instead make me feel numb. Sometimes I miss the way my skin would crawl, or how the voices screamed, or catching shadows out of the corner of my eye. Unfortunately this also took to tendencies to stand on bridge edges, because people forget that you don’t need water to feel like you’re drowning. I stopped being able to tell if it was you who was making me unhappy, or if I’ve just spent these last 15 years of my life unhappy and not noticed until now. I used to drink a whole bottle of cheap vodka; welcoming the taste of paint stripper, and would take my clothes off in the forest feeling naked and real. Unfortunately this would often lead to getting arrested and deemed a “menace to society”. I love these new pills that don’t change my mood but stopped me from having a period for 3 months until I started having nightmares of screaming floating baby heads and became paranoid that I was pregnant even though I haven’t had sex since before Christmas. Mental health has been something I’ve struggled with my entire adult life. Caught between the feeling of eyes burrowing into my skin and nothing at all. When you’ve felt pain so strongly it becomes a part of your everyday life like the sounds of cars driving past your window, apart from cars it’s screaming a constant screaming the distant screaming it becomes hard to detach from that because sometimes silence can be deafening.

[zillyeh]

🗣 spiral and zippie. you heard me

??: “Is... it going to hurt?”

CP: “Exceedingly, after the anesthesia wears off.”

CP: “Do not worry, young thing. I can assure you that the discomfort is worth the end results. The rivets ache the longest after.”

??: “Oh. Great.”

CP: “Probably no more pain than the hack job done to your face, no? Such an awful marring of an otherwise lovely visage.”

CP: “As we discussed I will be present for the procedure, but it will be Him doing the bulk of the work this evening.”

??: “And He’s...”

CP: “Fetching your lusus. I am sure you will want to see her before this, as there will probably not be much of her after.”

??: “Dr. Cerayn, really not sure about this any-”

CP: “You would like to see your companion again, correct? I can see to it that you are in the same recovery room if you would like. They’ve been aching to see you, alongside the physical aching they have been doing.”

??: “...”

CP: “Reservations such as yours are not unusual. Fairly common, actually. I had my own, but you want to protect the people you care about, no? We both know this is the best bet for someone of your... Condition. 

CP: “Your faith in Him will take you through to the end, I can assure you that.”

??: “... I’m ready as I’m ever gonna be, then.”

CP: “Excellent. I think I hear our surgeon approaching now. :o)”