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They'll keep you alive enough to feel like they aren't responsible for your death. They'll insist you live regardless of how you feel. We know the effects from this shit haunt you for life. Yet we'll never be free to die. Yeah it would be nice to live in the ideal where people get the support they need but we dont. Why can animals be put down to end their misery yet we are forced to live on regardless of the pain we carry. And what of autonomy? A joke. There is no freedom til we're dead.

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It's so devastating being unnoticed and/or ignored. And then on the occasional interaction being told that whatever you said is unwanted. It's happened so much in my life already.

And if it's not that it's being tolerated because it's more convenient to do so and then ignored or abandoned entirely.

It's been said that humans need other human interaction to survive. I seriously don't know how I'm alive then.

How cruel it is to desire a friend.

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I dream of safe housing in a wheelchair friendly neighborhood and a wheelchair.

Instead we get water running down the walls for over a decade, now the landlord fixed one window leak he's going to put the rent up.

Paying so much money for rent and food that it's impossible to save money for moving costs. Nevermind the housing shortage. I've seen too many families living out of cars because they don't want to rent houses to them.

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I have no one to talk to

I don't want to inflict my existence onto others in a close way

I am bad at relationships

I should avoid human connection because it will probably cause a lot of damage to all parties involved

But I crave interaction

So I stream stuff

I act like I have an audience that cares

I don't

Zero viewers

But it helps

Even when I was trying my best to be my best and to try connect, everything went wrong

I hurt people unwittingly because of how I am

I'm a very selfish person

I'm so tired of being alone

I'm so tired of being so damaged

The effects of dissociative identity disorder keeping me alive but killing my capacity for lots of other things

The autism and trauma making it hard to even make acquaintances

There's only so much you can work around and mitigate

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Ah yes, spammers, scammers, and robots. They're knocking on my door again (figuratively). Idk why they keep returning. I haven't fallen for anything yet. I also don't have any money. I give my information freely to survey companies (that anonymise data and aggregate it, I get paid for it).

If I'm going to get scammed it's going to be by someone who has put the effort in. A proper good phishing attempt. A cloned website. Something official looking.

Not some "bank text" or "postage" thing. Not a donation beggar bot. Not anything preying on a sense of urgency.

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Finding out that gall stones run in the family

I've been having issues for years and now over a decade later I'm being told it might be gall stones or something else to do with the gall bladder

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BRO GET YOUR ASS AND TITTY BLOG OUT OF THESE TAGS THAT HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR ASS AND TITTIES !!!

Legit thought this blog was just spam but it might actually be a real person which is horrifying to me. Honestly I can't tell the difference between fake shit and real shit these days.

Let a man scroll in peace. I just want hehe hahas and to see cool art NOT random (photo) pictures/videos of someone's ass.

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I feel like I've been quarantined

Kept separate from all the other people you talk to

Left alone on my island until it's convenient for you

But now none of you pop by

And I'm left here writhing in pain

Abandoned again