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I don't know why I bother saying anything

Why I bother complaining

All to myself.

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I'm so lonely

I wonder if I should just eat wheat and die slowly

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Sincerely the universe needs to leave me the fuck alone

Or actually help me

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Got upset with a friend

Calmed down

Still mildly annoyed but also at myself because upset me did not explain shit for shit...

Deadass thought I was saying shit clear asf but no actual all over the place

A few hours to breathe does a world of good

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I need better friends

I'm so tired of every time I'm upset about something and someone else isn't that it's all of a sudden time to share their opinions on why it's not a big deal actually like for once it'd be nice to have someone listen to me and just understand

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I keep getting sick

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Getting called a bunch of shit in a discord because I called someone out on their entitled behaviour

I know that it's supposed to be insulting but it holds no weight behind it because it's empty words from a stranger

It's annoying

But you know what does piss me off?

WHY IS THIS PERSON CALLING THEMSELVES A CODER JUST BECAUSE THEY ASKED AI TO WRITE SOME CODE RM RF YOURSELF

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Overflowing misery

Hopelessness

Despair

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I am trying so hard to be human

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W O W

So you want headphones?

WRONG!

Everything wireless has microphone function

You don't want ANC?

WRONG

You want to be able to customise gestures and a handful of other "features" including disabling things granularly ?

NO

You want physical buttons?

Sure :) here's our AI assistant button

You want to murder AI at the conceptual level?

WRONG :(

You decide to get something that costs a lot of money for the good sound quality, comfortable design, and wireless nature even though you will hate a lot of it?

:) refuses to work as advertised

You want a wired headphone?

The options are cheaper than a five year olds lunches for a week or so expensive you're giving a leg.

Oh you thought you found something?

Not available in your region

Anyways I've given up on wireless because every headphones app looks like shit from a cow.

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I cannot be myself

In the sense that I will suffer punishment regardless

But if I augment everything about me the backlash is less

I need positive feedback

But all I ever got was harsh edges or ignored altogether

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Having to be gluten free is such bullshit. So much of it is "health food" like NO PLS I NEED THE SUGAR AND FAT!!! I just wanted my food to taste good and not cost a castle. I'm relying on such like 3 brands who all make different stuff not to starve.

Also why does so much stuff you wouldn't expect to have gluten in actually have gluten. Baked beans. Stock cubes. Soy sauce. Frozen chips. Marinade. Lollies. Etc

Luckily the packaging requirements in NZ means that I can easily tell at a glance if things have gluten in them or not.

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everytime u go outside ur spending $60 automatically its crazy $60 is the new $20

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Stop buying food and coffee and make it at home. I'm begging everyone.

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ok well i filled up my car with gas and got cat food for my cats so idk how this applies to me also the “don’t buy coffee anymore” thing is rlly annoying from ppl acting like buying coffee is the reason ppl r struggling to keep purchases under 20 dollars instead of capitalism inflating prices for shareholders to buy another five houses like. eventually yall gotta stop doing the “no more avacado toast!” thing to ppl bc there is no budgeting that is enough to outrun inflation

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20 bucks is how much it costs taking public transport to places relatively close and back, it used to be closer to 10. Groceries have over doubled in price where I live in less than a year. Rents keep increasing by the legal maximum they can each year. Water and power are increasing recently.

That's just bare minimum stuff. Not including internet or anything for entertainment. You have libraries and parks for free nearby if you're lucky. But if you want to entertain yourself at home? Videos? Art? Sewing? Still costs money. A lot of supplies for more physical hobbies have increased in price.

Personally I love going to cafes and bakeries. It's somewhere that's a nice change. Brings me a little bit of joy. I used to be able to afford to visit my local bakery every day. Guess what? The cafes and bakeries have been trying their best to keep prices down (profit for a lot of local food places is very minimal so it's hard). A coffee only costs a dollar more than this time last year.

It's not having a little treat that's pushing people to live paycheck to paycheck.

Telling someone to stop spending money because they're complaining about prices rising isn't relevant. Even if it was someone who's going to the fanciest restaurant for every meal doesn't change the fact the prices tripling over the past few years sucks and feels unreal/crazy/like a whirlwind.

Just because someone complains about prices doesn't give you any knowledge of their financial situation.

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I need to figure out what my issues are health wise

But I doubt that's ever going to happen

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Part of my problem is that I actually want to be respected as a human being but all of the people who I talk to are only chill with me when I act a very specific way.

When I start showing symptoms of my disorders or start being passionate about stuff it's suddenly no signal.

Also one of my friends who used to talk to me all the time is suddenly going through experiences that makes him realise that maybe some of his past opinions weren't the best. But I'm realising that he truly is dumber than I ever thought because instead of actually changing his opinion he's just doubling down and resigning to suffering. I think he's gotten dumber in the years we didn't talk.

Wish I could connect with people but no I had to get autism and end up with dissociative identity disorder.

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I'm constantly envious of other people

I think the most fucked up one so far is being envious of ironmouse. Because she has people who care about her.

Also mad because now she's able to walk for longer than me in one go.

She also sings really well too. Which I enjoy. But also envy. My throat got damaged when I was a teen and it's never come right since. I used to love singing but now it hurts so I don't do it.

In some ways it's a good sign that I'm feeling this sort of stuff because I'm not as kill or be killed high alert trying to survive. I actually have space for feeling things. Even if it includes feeling like an alien etc

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Soul exhaustion

Too sensitive

Taking everything too personal

Too insensitive

Disconnected from the emotions