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[squirecreek]

May 3rd, 2025 - Beltane XXIX

The knighting of Sir Cornix the Celerity Knight (photo credit to FLNT/Sawyer Richardson; pictured is Syr Talon proceeding over the knighting as Sir Cornix kneels. Creek is presenting Cornix with a spear as his knighting weapon.)

This was the moment I officially stepped into my squireship! I had retained under Cornix during his squireship for a little over a year, and I was still really nervous to step into squiring - what if I’m not good at being a leader? What if I fail?

But the truth is that I am going to fail - maybe not entirely, but I’ll have moments where I fail at tasks. And I’m not gonna be a great leader right from the start. Being a squire is the start of my dedication to learn though - learn how to better communicate, how to listen to others, how to provide a safe space for people in the community.

So will I mess up? Absolutely. But the goal isn’t to be perfect. My goal is to grow. My goal is to stumble and pick myself back up and keep trying. My goal is to learn about my community and work towards making it even better.

I am Squire Creek of Dur Demarion and this is the start of my journey! ⚔️

[squirecreek]

The Great Hunt

On 8/10/25, I took a leap and barreled into The Great Hunt. I went from “I occasionally spar on the sides and maybe fight on the field when it’s no more than 4v4” to “I’m going to do a combat heavy barrel and fight like 8 people in 1v1 repeatedly until I beat all of them”.

There was no time limit, no limit on how many times I had to face each person. I fought Knights, Squires, and a Blade Masters Apprentice from my realm. People I look up to, my friends, and newer realm members.

I’m not a good fighter, but I pushed myself to try and it took me quite a while but I did pass my barrel. A part of me is sad I didn’t have it recorded, another part of me is very happy I didn’t have it recorded. Either way I am proud of myself for taking the leap, and extremely thankful for the encouragement I received from my friends in this venture.

[squirecreek]

Mini post-EQ dump (maybe I’ll come back and write something more lengthy later) :

• this is my 3rd event being an event coordinator, it’s so much work and I’m always so tired from running around but it’s probably the most rewarding work I’ve ever done.

• I didn’t get in nearly as many spars as I wanted, but Sunday I did get some good spars in with some out of state friends. I felt so much support in my journey to learn fighting and it was great.

• I got to sit in on a Nadar language class and a Tengu ritual hosted by my friend Stellar - it was a great experience, I enjoy getting to learn about the different lores and backgrounds of Belegarth.

• I got to hang out with my knight and all of our friends, make new friends, and enjoy my community and it really just helped rejuvenate my spirits.

• I got complimented multiple times for being firm with my boundaries with people at the event and that really felt good. I tend to be a people pleaser and to have people reaffirm that me standing by my boundaries is good and necessary was extremely helpful.

[squirecreek]

8/23/25 - I hosted a craft day at my house today! I’m biased and feel like it went over super well, lots of projects got finished (I managed to strip down and rebuild a blue sword with help from my knight and my best friend, finish my squires tabard, and get done with the base for a monster tunic I am making). I’ve never been able to host something like this and I’m super excited with the turn out - definitely hope I get to host more in the future! ⚔️

[squirecreek]

10 fights with Squire Khnor 8/10/2025 - learning flail

Advice from Khnor afterwards: stabilize your shield, you let it float towards the side as you fight. It can’t protect you that way, make sure to keep the shield where it needs to be.

Things I noticed afterwards: I need to be more responsive with the shield - I’m slow to try and block shots. I also need to better process when and where I’m getting hit (though this is something that will hopefully get better with time).