(LONG AHHH RAMBLE ABOUT MY OC AND HER XCANON RELATIONSHIP)
I wanna talk about Nemesis and her relationship with Gortash because she's not your average durge, and they're not your average durgetash ship. No, because I gotta complicate things and add unnecessary lore. SO, Nemesis is more connected to Bhaal, as in she'll hear his voice directly commanding her, not just the Urges.
This used to leave her practically unable to speak for herself because his voice overrided her thoughts, and she would speak in his thoughts instead (kill, death, murder over and over again).
The Bhaal cult saw her as a seer for this and locked her up to keep her "safe". She wasn’t able to sate her Urges for four years, driving her even more mad
She eventually overcame that stage of the-voices-ruining-her-life-TM and was able to function as a proper Bhaalspawn. She could speak coherently and was finally allowed to kill on her own. She was thriving.
Since she was doing so well in her bloody duties, Bhaal wasn't too worried about her making more Bhaalspawn (just yet), but Seravok wanted her to. Unfortunately for him, they learned in her time locked up that forcing her into anything she didn't want to meant losing limbs. Now, she wasn't against having children. In fact, she wanted to for Father, but she refused to procreate with any so and so that dear grandfather/brother presented. She wanted an equal, someone worthy of her demigod self, someone who would make her child even grander.
She didn't find that someone. Until Enver Gortash, that is.
A wildly intelligent man. A mastermind of manipulation. A man willing to do all that it takes for what he wants. A Chosen.
He was perfect.
She wanted him.
But he wasn't just any Chosen. He was the Chosen of Bane. And Father would not have it.
And since she has Bhaal thoughts directly beamed into her head, it made it impossible for her to go behind his back and have Gortash anyways.
If she tried getting too close, Bhaal would take over and make her kill Enver.
She did not want that.
For the first time, she didn't want to kill someone. She wanted him part of her legacy. And yet, she could not have him. Lest she murder him.
So, she kept her distance when around him. To keep him safe. Despite her rapidly falling for him and being so close yet so far being maddening. She kept her hands to herself.
Gortash didn't help the situation much. Yes, he kept his distance but didn't understand just how powerful a hold Bhaal could have on Nemesis. And so, he would continue to charm and please her in other ways, making her even more obsessed with him while forced to social distance.
That all being said, Nemesis would would find work arounds like killing important Banites or people that resembled Gortash to please Father so that she could get closer to him for a day or so.
But it never lasted, and they could never do more than passing touches and honeyed words (aka batsht crazy flirting).
It's quite literally "But Daddy, I love him" and I'm feral for it.
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