when pandreo said he's glad panette got out and that he did not hold a grudge against her and that he wasnt sure if he could make it alone just like her. but the thing is he did. he did build himself from the ground up from the ruins that his entire family left him with. its not that he didnt have the skills to make it alone its that its so so so vital to him to have someone he could take care of. his little sister or abusive parents or church goers who he had absolutely no responsibility towards but did end up taking care of anyway. how could he abandon them when he himself understood how devastating it was to be abandoned? so he made it his entire life mission. to provide community. to uplift himself and others. through partying. anyway silly party priest am i right.