#dus10

[lonlinesswontbethedeathofme]

Omgomgomg so.. if all goes well...my boyfriend may or may not be SLEEPING OVER MY HOUSE the night before warped tour, and if my dad/mom say yes then he'll be able to ahdhddhakavd and i would literally be the happiest girl on this entire fuckign planet omgomgomg i realllllyyy hope my parents say yes, bc id lalalalalOVEEE for that to happen akdgdkskajd just to be able to cuddle with him and get ready with him and stuff agshjhqad plsplsplspls let this happen itll make me so fuckign happy i need this so much ;~; ;~; ;~; ;~; pls dad dont be an ass.....plsplsplspls

[lonlinesswontbethedeathofme]

Fangirling i guess since i havent in awhile....

I cant wait to go to warped tour. I cant wait to see him. I havent seen him in foreer and i just have an excitement growing in my stomach bc its our 2 month anniversary, even tho im.not totally into ERMAGERD 2 MONTHS TOGETHER OH MY GAWD but its exciting because were going to see Born Of Osiris together, and thats the band that me and him met in, we met in the crowd of Born Of Osiris last year at mayhem fest and im just so excited to go to a concert withhim because he makes me the happiest girl in the entire universe and im going to myhome with him - i feel like i belong at a show, i love it, im so happy. I dont get to be as hapy as i am than when im at a show. Warped is going to be FANTASTIC omg and i hope all of my friends that said they wrre gonna go, go. I cant cant cant wait, omfgomfgomfg.

[lonlinesswontbethedeathofme]

I just want to cuddle iwth you in my bed all day and makeout with you and kiss you and hold you in my arms and fuck you and then cuddle afterward and smoke cigarettes and weed and drink tea and coffee and spend the whole day and night with you because i love you so much but i cant because you liVE LIKE 3 MILLENIA AWAY (actually 1 hour but same thing) UGFHGHKJGHKHJ

[lonlinesswontbethedeathofme]

Sigh...I guess I'm not seeing you. :( Trying not to think of the worst. Oh well....

[lonlinesswontbethedeathofme]

I wish I could talk to you more.....

[lonlinesswontbethedeathofme]

I'm so happy. I'm very happy to say that after today I realized that, yes, although a part of my soul is missing because you took it, but now nothing on me has your name written on it. There are flowers growing in the wounds that you left, healing everything. I found where I want to go, what i want to do, who im with (mostly). I hung out with my baby today and I'm sitting here dying. In a good way. In a great way. I just wish i could go back and see him... God I realized today that I am completely and utterly in love with him and I kinda sorta wanna go back in time and smack the shit out of myself. How could I have done that to myself, that was torture. I'm so happy right now and I wouldn't change it for the world. I'm just on the way home jamming out to Northlane and just thinking about him and today. Today was the best day ever, oh my god yes... <3 please let more like this come soon!

[lonlinesswontbethedeathofme]

Aw yeah theres that silly smile i used to get :3 but now its for the right one <3

[lonlinesswontbethedeathofme]

Ok it makes me so happy that me and my boyfriend listen to basically the exact same music now like. He listens to Sempiternal and I'm getting into We Butter The Bread With Butter and we can wear matching merch and akjhskjdhkjsgjahgsjhgdjgfjgjhjshakd that makes me absolutely so fucking happy like can he be anymore perfect???? <3