You were always used to keeping your feelings in. At some point, life taught you to never need anyone. Even when you had me, you never really let me in. I wanted you to, I begged you to, I showed you I was safe, but you couldn’t let me in. And sometimes I thought you liked it that way, but other times I knew it wasn’t you, it was something about me that didn’t make you feel safe, no matter what I did or how much I tried or how much I love you.
The saddest part is, while you never needed me, I never learned how to not need you. Since the day I met you, you were always there. You didn’t let me go, you made me feel safe. I knew I could always come to you, and I always did. But I never knew I’d have to learn how to not need you. I don’t even know if I ever can. You never needed me, but I don’t know how to stop needing you.
And I think, because of this, I’ll always have a void in my heart called you. I’m sure you have it too, but you’re void isn’t me, yours is one you know how to fill. But I only ever had you. And that’s the sad difference between you and I. You never needed me, and I never needed anyone but you.
— S
