Got my test back today in Spanish class and I did so horrible. When I was taking it I felt that I was going to do pretty well. Not necessarily getting an A or B grade, but somewhere in the passing area. Nope. I got 67/100. The teacher mentioned that those who got below 70 with get a call from the retention center suggesting some help with raising grades up or better studying habits. My teacher also has the feeling that if I see a Spanish tutor that it may help me in the class.
As this point I feel so horrible about myself and the fact that I cannot even do well in school with just two classes. I mean, there are other people who can take more than that and still be able to enjoy themselves, while working. Why can’t I? All I’m ever good at is manual labor shit, because that’s all I was ever raised to do. Anyway, I just feel so sick from knowing that I’m falling behind and not being able to do so well in this class. Not sure if I really want to see a tutor, but I should. I’m just so independent and I would rather accomplish tasks on my own. Can’t really depend on other people to help me. It’s just how I am and have always been. I’ll be expecting the call sometime soon, but what does it matter? It’s not like them calling me is going to help me with my grades. Now that my other class is over, I think I can focus more on Spanish and Art Appreciation a little more. At least I hope so.
