Jan 17, 2013
content with the numbness
i lost all faith tonight. all hope. all strength. i was holding on to the one string that this would be my time, that after all this waiting and fighting to be and get the best i could, i had finally find complete happiness. but no. again, i got the same answer even if it was put on a silver platter. its not even the amount of rejections because thats not why ti keeps happening...its the amount of failed times I've been able to feel anything with anyone. its like I'm permanent stuck in this never ending hellhole where the same cycle continues with different guys.