Jul 20
feeling low-key so d.ysphoric with my c.hest tbh. i can't really bind bc i'm so big chested it would just exacerbate the issue. knowing i could have perhaps accessed p.uberty b.lockers as a kid and didn't because i didn't have the language for it is actually heartbreaking. ughhhhh. it's not even a "i want them gone" thing, but at the same time i honestly wouldn't care if they were either bc it wasn't like i desired them to begin with.
just c.rashing out bc my algorithm is showing me ppl who have had s.urgery (and ofc i'm over the moon for them) but also left with such a big sense of grief and wishing it was me, y'know?