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Making the connection

I remember the first time I developed some feelings for her. It was when we were at the slam dunk after party, with some friends. She was there with another lad, who was of the same age, with similar interests to her. And I was with the fam having fun. It all started because I told my friend that I thought she was really hot, and he went and told her. He probably had the best intentions in mind. Either way it made the night fairly awkward between me and her. Now, I don't like the guy she was with that night, and everyone in the group says it's because he's competition. Which is probably true, when you think about it. But either way, the guys a bit of an attention seeking bellend, and I have very little time for those kinds of drips. A little annoyance to the whole situation is that he'll be there this weekend at the camp out, and so will she. But... She's stopping with me, and hanging with my friends. So fuck dat guy. After the slam dunk weekend we started talking more and she became more involved with our group of friends. The weekend just gone was the weekend where the most between us happened; and in all honesty, it's left me feeling confused, which is what anyone would expect after that. So what happened is we basically got fairly intimate without going all the way. It was incredibly fun because it's the kinda intimacy that is fuelled by heart racing passion. Where you feel breathless just from touching their breasts or inner thigh. While all this was happening, our friend was lay on the same bed around 2 ft away (Probably would have gone a lot further if he wasn't there). So we had our rough bit of foreplay and she fell asleep in my arms. Which was a nice feeling, because at the time I really felt like this could go somewhere. Now that the weekend is over and communication isn't exactly at its highest, I'm left wondering if she wants anything between us, or if it was just a mistake? I'm not bothered either way, I just wish I wasn't in a state of limbo. Whatchu gunna do about it, fam? So, what the fuck am I going to do about it? Certainly not fill my phone up with blog posts about her, and various other anxiety induced posts..... No, I'm going to try and win her this weekend. I'm going to be the most gentle/loving person I know how to be. I'm going to show her I'm not someone who can't take anything seriously. I'm going to talk to her, get deep and then try and kiss her. Because I want to know more about her. Get to know her on a more personal level. so my end goal? Kiss her, and see where it goes from there. #YOLO The last thing I want however, is to make her uncomfortable and feel obliged to have some sort of intimacy with me so that she can maintain an active friendship with the rest of the group. So what attracts me to her? She's not a stuck up self obsessed piece of shit who thinks the world revolves around them. She's actually a very attractive girl with the best body and personality. Oh, and she's a natural redhead. That gets you bonus points with Joe.

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^date

I've become one of the people I never thought possible. I have friends that I'd trust with my life. Future plans & holidays that make the past 4 years of my life just seem like one big waste of time. This weekend I'm off down to Leeds again, to be with some of the most amazing, down to earth and open minded people I've ever been lucky enough to call friends. I honestly can't even put into words how much I care for these guys, and how I'd go to the ends of the earth for either one of them if needs be. Thinking about spending time with them makes everything better. I'm not depressed & I'm not worried about anything. I get a warm feeling inside when I think about the hangs we have; why?? Because I never stop fucking smiling. It's just a bunch of equally fucked up people hanging out and laughing, all the while we make insanely good memories. The only bad thing, is it lasts barely 2 days and doesn't happen again for another month- 6 weeks. I've been thinking lately about how I can try and keep this happy feeling. Release all my stress of day to day life and just be happy again. I've been thinking about university. But then come the doubts. How will you get in? How do you apply? How do you know that's the right course for you? Where do you apply too? Aren't you too old for uni now? So many fucking things running through my head. But my life needs sorting, and I'm sick of saying I'm going to do something about it, almost as if I'm brushing it off till a later date. Anyway; roll on this weekend. Alcohol, drugs and maybe sex.

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I think I might actually be a boy... oh my god..