#earlynight thoughts

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Look at the stars and wonder

"What are they?"

Philosophically, I mean

Know that they are indeed stars,

Know the science---

But wonder

What the significance behind their being is;

Little sparkly glimpses into heaven-

Tiny air holes, drilled into our terrarium--

Remnants of life, forever moving, burning , and changing into new---

What, philosophically, are stars

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Its silly how complex of emotions some animals seem able to contain.

Most people like to tell me that animals are nothing more, with only basic emotions, yet, with all my studying and research I've learned of so many who can experience things other than happy/sad/angry.

For example, birds shouldn't have mirror toys, from what I understand. It makes them think there's another bird in the cage, which is simple in thinking, but this simple way of thinking makes them feel the complexity of heart break due to the "other bird" not playing with them. Or even aggression over the same thing. Its dangerous.

Another example is in a lot of common pets ((cats, rodents, dogs, birds, just not fish and most reptiles)), which is grief. Many animals will stop eating and playing when they experience the loss of a bonded friend. They can experience grief so harshly that sometimes they never return to the deposition they used to have, or even, starve themselves.

Most animals can feel many emotions outside of just the simple ones, so I wonder why most humans think they don't.

Is it just a result of being uneducated? or is it a form of taking the guilt off of ourselves for succumbing to our human nature of exploitation?

Idk, but I think about this alot

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I find him fascinating

Lovely and bright

I can't really stay upset with him

Because he isn't anything like my brain says he is

He's sweet

A little stupid at times

But sweet

He loves me

And my dramatics

And finds my quirks endearing

I guess he finds me fascinating too?

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Delayed responses

Slowed starts

Avoiding me entirely

And yet

I still don't have a clue,,,

What did I do?

I checked with others

Made sure I didn't misread the cues

They said I wasn't rude

I still don't know,,,

What did I do?

I wasn't mean

Yet I wasn't good with words

Not in a way that others think matter

And yet,,,

You do?

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Nostalgia is quite a creature.

It hungers for days of youth, yet is such a picky eater;

Wants more of old,

But the new built on old is not enough.

It is too new,

too bright,,

too different.

it is not old enough--

yet

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I miss who I was before everything.

Before I could remember things,,

I miss it all; the colors, the sounds,

Everything from before-- it was so,,, comforting,,, then.

It's not that life is worse now; it was, for a bit,,,

but things are just different...

and I miss when they weren't?

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Sometimes people can't be trusted to tell the difference between very importantly different ideals

Ex: eating the "rich" vs Eating the "Wealthy. Many people think eating the rich would mean taking money from ALLLL people above a certain income, but they forget that being rich means you have a lot of money, and usually that is because of hard work, and generally that money is put back into society, whereas wealth is an accumulation of money without much work being done,,,, and is kept out of the hands of the commoner,,, this distinction is important bc you should not eat Dolly Parton, who earn every bit of her richness and benefits society with it, but you should absolutely eat Bill Gates who earned his wealth but doesn't benefit society

Extra Ex: Jealousy vs Possessive,,, jealousy stems from insecurities like being replaced or never being enough while possessiveness tends to stem from a feeling of ownership or deep wanting. Girls do NOT want a jealous bf, they want a possessive one,,, ((I mean,,,, some freaks do like that pitiful behavior, but we aren't counting them))---