EarlyNightsLateThoughts

Just posting random tangents triggered by improper living,,, enjoy? I'm not sure

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"I thought I was doing better,

but I keep thinking of you---"

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Its silly how complex of emotions some animals seem able to contain.

Most people like to tell me that animals are nothing more, with only basic emotions, yet, with all my studying and research I've learned of so many who can experience things other than happy/sad/angry.

For example, birds shouldn't have mirror toys, from what I understand. It makes them think there's another bird in the cage, which is simple in thinking, but this simple way of thinking makes them feel the complexity of heart break due to the "other bird" not playing with them. Or even aggression over the same thing. Its dangerous.

Another example is in a lot of common pets ((cats, rodents, dogs, birds, just not fish and most reptiles)), which is grief. Many animals will stop eating and playing when they experience the loss of a bonded friend. They can experience grief so harshly that sometimes they never return to the deposition they used to have, or even, starve themselves.

Most animals can feel many emotions outside of just the simple ones, so I wonder why most humans think they don't.

Is it just a result of being uneducated? or is it a form of taking the guilt off of ourselves for succumbing to our human nature of exploitation?

Idk, but I think about this alot

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I find him fascinating

Lovely and bright

I can't really stay upset with him

Because he isn't anything like my brain says he is

He's sweet

A little stupid at times

But sweet

He loves me

And my dramatics

And finds my quirks endearing

I guess he finds me fascinating too?

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i long for more conversations with you

and you---

you long for less.

<<i wish you longed for my thoughts and voice half as much as you do for my body>>

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I see beauty in everything

Trash

Leaves

Things others leave behind

I often get distracted by what I see

Sculptures college kids made of sticks

The yellow of leaves

The complexity of webs

The world around me

It's all so distracting

<<My wandering eyes see everything around me, yet I will still run into a fvckin' pole>>

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That was a lot of skies, have some more *not* skies

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I see beauty in everything

Trash

Leaves

Things others leave behind

I often get distracted by what I see

Sculptures college kids made of sticks

The yellow of leaves

The complexity of webs

The world around me

It's all so distracting

<<My wandering eyes see everything around me, yet I will still run into a fvckin' pole>>

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People from the past like to reach out

Start conversations after years

Only to realize

it's not the me they remember

People change, yeah, it's true

But people forget that

I look the same as i always have

So it confuses them

I'm not the me that they remember

Not as bubbly

Not as loud

Not as blissful

As they remember

It's funny to me

because i havent really changed

Life's been the same

Horrible

but the same

as it always was

The only thing that's changed

is the light that finally left my eyes

the words i now leave unsaid

I'm not sure why everyone thought i'd stay the same

I guess they didn't think i'd become so dull

less exciting to talk to

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Delayed responses

Slowed starts

Avoiding me entirely

And yet

I still don't have a clue,,,

What did I do?

I checked with others

Made sure I didn't misread the cues

They said I wasn't rude

I still don't know,,,

What did I do?

I wasn't mean

Yet I wasn't good with words

Not in a way that others think matter

And yet,,,

You do?

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I lied, be subjected to my crusty art again

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Cats are fascinating. They have vocal cords that can (rarely) replicate human like speech, the ability to comprehend human languages, and the knowledge that humans are dumb so you must yell at them to gain anything.

Yet, they don't understand that we are human, they seem to think we are just large frikked up cats.

Dogs understand we're not dogs, they're also incredibly smart, yet even more rarely figure out the use of their vocal cords.

All this to say,,, I look forward to whatever horror game is made about cats and their cryptid abilities.

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Nostalgia is quite a creature.

It hungers for days of youth, yet is such a picky eater;

Wants more of old,

But the new built on old is not enough.

It is too new,

too bright,,

too different.

it is not old enough--

yet

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Look at the stars and wonder

"What are they?"

Philosophically, I mean

Know that they are indeed stars,

Know the science---

But wonder

What the significance behind their being is;

Little sparkly glimpses into heaven-

Tiny air holes, drilled into our terrarium--

Remnants of life, forever moving, burning , and changing into new---

What, philosophically, are stars

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This is Starbii :D

Lowkey just wanna show off what my pfp is :)

Make whatever assumptions ya want, this is still gonna be a "EarlyNightsLateThoughts" blog, just wanna show off my art this one time lol

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I miss who I was before everything.

Before I could remember things,,

I miss it all; the colors, the sounds,

Everything from before-- it was so,,, comforting,,, then.

It's not that life is worse now; it was, for a bit,,,

but things are just different...

and I miss when they weren't?

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Older brothers are quite a species.

I might have to observe them to figure out why they have so much audacity.