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[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

Girl youre awakening my old crush on Peter Capaldi

LOL, I'm glad to be responsible for it!! 💜

Honestly, I've liked him as an actor for AGES; he's always been cute, and I love his voice and all, but that was it. However, that was my brain overshadowing the signs of a severe case of brain rot. Since I watched a clip of him as the 12th doctor about a month ago, I knew I was hooked. Then I watched The Lair of the White Worm, and now he has me in a chokehold! (I blame the fluffiest curls and those angelic features, ugh.)

I mean...

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

In reference to this post…I saw you say phantom of the opera royal Albert hall 2011 and…just gotta get this off my chest- the look back that Christine does at the very end as she’s going up the stairs and the the NOD Eric does that tells her it’s okay MY HEAAAART!!!! It was improvised for that one performance but it ruins me ever. Time.

Great choice.

OMG YES!!

The way she HESITATES to leave him, even though he has done so much harm to her and those around her, at that moment, I pictured that Christine was not only pitying him; she actually realized that everything he did came from a place of love (even a very distorted one) and solitude. She nurtured feelings for him, for the good in him. OH, MY HEART!! And Raoul KNOWS she's not hesitating because she doesn't love him, but because she cares about Erik in such a loving way 😭😭that's just… complicated.

I love everything about this particular version, especially Ramin Karimloo's, Hadley Fraser's, and Sierra Bogess' acting choices, like, BITCHES YOU GAVE ME TRAUMA!!

There's a reason it's my most-logged film on Letterboxd xD

I love you for sharing this fun fact with me because I had forgotten about it, and now I'm tempted to re-watch it again!

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

*whispers* I heard you had a dream about our baby girl Jeb? The teacher wants you to share it with the class. Lol I saw your reblog and figured I disrupt your peace and ask about Jeb

Lol, yeah, it's been a while, but I remember that it involved a tie, a dark room, rolled up sleeves, and our baby girl praying at a new different altar. 😏😏😈😈

Ohhhh I'm ABSOLUTELY adding part of my dream in that self-indulgent piece. Will y'all find out which part is with those tips, once is out?? 👀👀

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

Show: Midnight Mass vs Gaslit 😘😘😘

OMGGGGG THIS IS HARD!!

puts my hands together under the chin and stares into space for ten straight minutes

All right, as Jack the Ripper would say, let's make it step by step. (jk)

I'm a twenty-year-old woman who lives in a small town on a ridiculously small island in Brazil, so I had no idea what Watergate was really about other than that it was a political scandal involving corruption and Nixon. That said, obviously to understand Gaslit I had to do some research (which was fun because some people at HamFam wrote posts that helped me a lot, thank you so much btw).

When I saw what the content of the series would be, it was a pleasant surprise, because I have a taste for dark and sardonic humour, with exaggerations that border on the absurd, like the humour made by Monty Python. (ofc Gaslit isn't THAT nonsense).

So I'm having a lot of fun with Gaslit and its development… HOWEVER

Midnight Mass was such an absolutely immersive and emotional experience for me that in my heart, Mike Flanagan's universe will always win.

Ever since watching Hush in a crowded mall cinema with a group of friends, I've fallen in love with Flanagan's cinematography and the sensitive way he chooses to tell his stories. lol, what can I do, I am a slut for character development.

As a card-carrying horror fan, it was easy to get caught up in the emotional train of The Haunting series and the great Gerald's Game. (Of course it helped that I simply loved the books these works adapt). But, I've always been very curious about the blessed easter eggs from the Midnight Mass book that were all over the Flanaverse, so once the series was announced I couldn't have exploded with more joy.

I think I can safely say that MM is Flanagan's work that I most identify with, for a number of factors that I shouldn't list here or I'll go overboard lol.

The emotional weight, the lyrical melancholy of the narrative and the monstrous character construction that Flanagan made, makes me shiver every time I watch it. Not to mention that the suffering I went through in the last two episodes makes me avoid them more than the devil avoids the cross. (I think I totally saw her 7 times, but I must have gone from 20 times watched, until episode 5 lmao).

Honestly, I would need a ridiculous amount of pages to describe how much this series means to me, and I've already talked a lot, lol. I'm sorry!!

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

If you could relive any memory of your past, what would it be?

Hi!! 💜

Ah, that's one hell of a question, tho I don't believe I have a good answer for it. You see, I don't think I have any memory worth repeating, either good or bad, at least none that comes to mind right now. I wanted to give you a nice, philosophical answer, but I've come to terms, that I have none. Which it's sad, because I wish I had…

Actually, maybe I have! It's not a big deal, but, there are two, very similar memories that I would like to relive. When I was a toddler, I used to sleep in my grandmothers rooms. They had dark rooms because of the wood furniture, and string mattresses, both with metal headboards. They used heavy blankets, duvets, even though it's always hot in here. I cannot quite put my finger on why their respective rooms felt so cosy, but I felt safe there, like nothing could ever reach me while I was there, under those blankets.

It seems silly, now, writing it down, but it was a forgotten memory that, given the opportunity, I would like to relive, their soft fingers in my hair, and the smell of perfume and mothballs in their pillows. Their warmth while sharing the bed with me for a nap after lunch or supper. I would sleep in my grandmother's Celeste bedroom at night, I have no siblings, and my parents would come home late from work, so we both would be quite lonely. We kept each other company, I would fall asleep in her bed and then magically wake up in my bed the morning after.

My granny Maria would let me share the bed with her for a nap after lunch when I went to visit her in the countryside during family reunions. Her bedsheets were of a fake satin fabric in burgundy. By the foot of the bed it had a dark stain of perfume where she accidentally dropped an open bottle of her cologne.

Sorry, I realized I've extended myself, so, if you wanted to know, that's a memory I would like to relive. More of a feeling actually, the feeling of safety, that I've never been able to emulate ever since they passed away. Apologies for ending on a melancholic note, have a nice week! Thank you for taking the time and interest to send me this ask, it's much appreciated. Please, pardon me for the delay, life has been wild for a while.

Lots of love! 💜

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

Hi, what books have you been reading lately?

Oh, hi, Nonnie! 💜

Hmm, let me think. Because of university I have had little energy to read, as I am already up to my neck in academic texts. But recently I've been revisiting the first book in the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy series, and some Shakespeare plays, the last one I read was two weeks ago, The Tempest. It's one of my favorites, and it was the first fully English-language media I read when I was learning the language, so there's a bit of nostalgia.

When I don't have time to stop and read I listen to audiobooks, I've been listening to a Brazilian book by the author Leonel Caldela that the title could be translated as 'Creator of Death: The Exorcist's Gospel, Vol 2.' It is a cosmic horror with some lovecraftian elements, it is a really good one, and if you know something of Portuguese I super recommend the duology!!

And you, Nonnie, what have you been reading lately? Thanks for the ask!! Feel free to send more if you want!

Lots of Love!! 💜💜

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

I was tagged by my darling @hamishlinklaters 💜💜

last song listened to: lazy days - enya

favorite color: burgundy

currently reading: the hobbit - j. r. r. tolkien

currently watching: the devil's hour, doctor who, batman cape crusader, agatha all along and under the vines!

last movie I watched: red carpet (2005)

sweet, spicy, or savory: savoury :D

relationship status: Single and living my best life!

current obsessions: charles edwards as celebrimbor in the rings of power and his Shakespearean plays!

tea or coffee: tea! 💜

last thing I googled: "can one die by being near a dead whale who's about to explode?" the answer is yes, you can die, and the explosion ray is from 10 meters!

No pressure tags 💜: @purplelupins @stardustandgunpowder @raraeavesmoriendi @chronic-ghost

[ebiemidnightlibrarian]

Welcome to the Celebrimbor train Ebie ☺️😂

Thank you, love! 😊

To be quite honest, having a crush in Charles Edwards wasn't on my bingo card this year! Seems like a nice surprise, tho! 💜

Another hot oldman to add to my apparently endless list. 😂