Some thoughts based on recent events:
Minorities deserve their freedom. One should never belittle their culture and traditions. More so attack them, both on personal and national level. We survive as well as we can in this globalising world. It's hard.
My nationality and citizen-ship are different things. I am often confused by my nationality, but I sure am Estonian citizen and I have never been more proud.
I am afraid. Afraid of what comes next in any scenario (whether Ukraine or Russia wins the war). Most of all I'm afraid of what happens to my family in Russia.
And I'm a coward, because I'm afraid that if I do anything via internet to help Ukraine, Russian hackers will find my relatives and harm them. I know there's a low possibility, but it's still there.
I have never been so careful with what I say, because every word that I utter could be turned against me. Just because I mostly identify as Russian.
Putin's brainwash is hard to come out of. Our family was one of the few that managed to do so back in 2014. If you couldn't get out then, then now would be extra difficult.
This post is most courageous thing I jave done I'm past two months. As I before said, I mostly live in fear...