#effusions

[random-xpressions]

I pray that everyone on earth is taken so that it leaves me and God alone. The ecstasy hits different when you're taken by the unseen, the unheard, the untouched - my truest lover who prefers to be behind the veil, my unknown, the divine romance who gets all my secret whispers that the world would never get to hear of. The lovers on earth would wish, if only they could exchange places but not for seven heavens and all that the earth possess, not even for a thousand paradises would I ever trade this divine love affair. His songs I hum, his admiration I'm lost in, his beauty I'm enchanted with, I wouldn't claim he is present but nor could I say he has ever been absent, the concept of presence and absence is simply vanished when it comes to him, an insanity from which I do not wish to be cured of, a madness from which I've no intention to recover. If love isn't something this crazy, then your earthly love is merely a hindrance in your experiencing life to its fullest...

Random Xpressions

[random-xpressions]

I realize the moment You arrive

And I see the clear difference

When You finally depart.

And most often You leave

Without even bidding a proper farewell,

Just as You arrive without any prior notice.

Sudden is both Your coming and going.

I could only wish now

That the next time You arrive,

You never leave.

Would that You were visible to my eyes

I would have definitely devised a plot

To chain You with me forever.

Random Xpressions

[random-xpressions]

Why is there so much loudness in our prayers as though the One being called upon is someone distant or deaf. Why can't our prayers turn to be subtle whispers, even wordless preferably, in which our hearts lean heavily to that divine friend, where your pleas are reduced and there's more of gratitude, where instead of asking you rather indulge in an overwhelming conversation with that secret friend. There's too much noise in our temples, synagogues and mosques. The goal is to go inward, the goal is to arrive with a lasting silence. You've already reached home, why keep knocking a door that wasn't even there in the first place...

Random Xpressions

[hurkhan-blog]

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[hindiakostraight]

head or tail

I wish it is you. The one I have been waiting for. I actually want it to be you.

I had fun tonigt. Although I've said to myself not to ask you out anymore but just wait for you to miss me so much that you will be the one to find a way to see me, As expected, that did not happen. Not that I know you wouldn't ask out, but that I cannot hold back. I'm the one who misses so much and always finds the way to see you. What can I do? I'm built this way.

I cannot wait. That's the problem.

I've been through this before. Strict parents. House rules. Off limits, Can't visit! Can't easily go out when I wanted to see her. The fear that someone might see us holding hands or whatever. Those childish things, those're just pain in the butt!

I told myself, never will I allow myself be in that situation again. It's crappy. Hurts like hell. What a waste of time. It's no cool. And I thought I've outgrown it. Thought I can just say no to it and not let it happen.

But life surely has its way to surprise you.

No matter how much you promise to say no to the situation, it is the person herself whom you cannot say no to.

I just have this feeling that among all the rest, you will be worth all the pain. Worth all the effort. Worth all the sacrifices. You have something that keeps me coming back for more. Something that pushes me beyond my limits when I know I that I have none. Something that wants me to take all the risks. Lay all my cards down. Be unguarded. Defenseless. Let myself fall.

I know I have already fallen. Deep. This is indeed a gamble. You are a gamble. Just like how your name sounds...

[hindiakostraight]

Dear Self,

I'm sorry nasasaktan kita kahit nagpromise na ako na hindi na.

Love,

Yourself

[hindiakostraight]

The closer I get, the deeper it falls, the greater the fear.

DD