Eight of Cups
Another tarot piece, this one back from May 2019. I was working on another piece at this time but the Eight of Cups suddenly became much more relevant.
Previously I had gone no contact with my father, who did not accept my genderfluid nature and would continually misgender and deadname me. We reconnected late 2018 for his father's funeral, where I deadnamed myself and accepted she/her pronouns because I "didn't want to cause a fuss." I didn't want to "detract" from my grandfather's death, and wanted to be there for my father, who was a son mourning his own father. He wept in my arms and I was overcome by how much I wanted a relationship with him again.
Fast forward to only a couple months later, in which he would disappoint me yet again. I had given my father chance upon chance, far too many, and he disappointed me at every turn. The Eight of Cups, about letting go of disappointment, suddenly became more than prevalent as I went no contact with him again, and have remained so till this day.
The Eight of Cups asks you what you are holding on to that no longer serves. Are you enticed by the gold in these goblets? Are you tempted to stay? Or are you finally wise enough to admit that enough is enough, and that it is time to move on?
