No matter what state you may be in, I'm glad you're still around
Me too! Life might be hard but it's so fucking worth living, I'm grateful Im still here!
Some good news is that I've gotten beefier from all the fysiotheraphy and the weather allows me to go hiking again! I don't have any paralysis in my body anymore but the nerve damage makes walking feel kind of weird and unsymmetrical but I can still go up the mountain! Which is huge! ( The accomplishment that is - the mountain itself is medium)
how is your healing journey going? so happy to see you continue to make art. i hope it brings you joy even if there are frustrations. ❤️🩹
Hello anon! Thank you for thinking of me and my health, its been a very busy start of 26 for me!
Its been 2 and a half years since the stroke and about a year since my dystonia diagnosis and the start of that treatment - botox to forcibly shut off the constant twitching in my left hand- and progress is slow these days.
I'm wrapping up the first year of my degree in visual communication this June, with some minor stumbles- and I'm very proud of myself! I'm also very very tired.
By all means It's kind of insane that it hasn't been longer since the stroke! I wrote my motivation letter and put together my university portfolio while I was at rehabilitation for my brain damage and injury last april, at a time when I was very lost and alone. Finding a direction I might attempt to follow with my newfound disabilities felt like a way to regain some control of my life.
But I can't reccomended treating yourself the way I have. I have s chronic exhaustion and sensory issues that make navigating life at university difficult. More then ever i am forcibly isolated from the people around me. I can't go to many public places- I don't have the energy to withstand prolonged social situations. Im isolated from my peers in invisible yet tangible ways.
Im very upfront about my situation! My blindness, my uncooperative left arm, my chronic exhaustion- but I know that I also don't look injured. I don't act like I'm injured! I don't want my brain damage to define who I am- but I'm slowly coming to terms that I can't will away my disability. Its a permanent part of me. A huge chunk of mu brain matter is dead. I won't get it back.
I also don't know if the dystonia will get better. I have improved! But its a constant cycle of grief where you never fully make peace with your situation because it might still improve? My peripheral vision on the left is gone. Nothing to be done about it but find ways to live with that. Its final and I honestly prefer that certainty.
So sadly I still struggle with it. I wish I were better at handling my loss.
I like to say that the stroke ruined my life but it did not ruin who I am. I won't let it. I want to live and I want to make something beautiful.
Hopefully I'll have the chance to make as something that makes me daily struggle feel worth it.
In the meantime I'll be as happy as I possibly can as defiance and resistance. I'm truly so grateful to still be alive
Oooo how did you make the plum drink?? That’s so cool
Its just soaking plums in alcohol for a very very long time! Our neighbors have a plum tree so we got ro pick a bunch and stored the fruit in vodka, vanilla, sugar and cinnamon!
It was a pretty lovely ordeal but the weather was so bad a lot of the ripe plums almost rained away... I have some pictures of being outside in the steep little hill where our neighbors cat supervised my endeavours! My poor balance and steep hill in Birkenstocks was.... a bad Choice so thank u Tiramisu
hope you're doing well frikk. think of you often. much love from across the sea <3
you're so so sweet anon, thank you for lending me your strenght... I'll make a more proper update on what the hell¨s been going on in my life soon, it's been. a LOT
Hello darling!
I'm slowly doing better, but it's been an exaustive personal time in my life. I've started a visusl communcation degree so my ass is back at uni, which while very fun is deeply exausting so I don't have that much free time on my hands inbetween my treatments. But i'm getting better! which is a really, really wondeful feeling!
Aw I really like the updated Hades portraits, what don't you enjoy about them? Just that the proportions are less realistic?
I'm sorry anon, this is of course my personal preferences but I really felt like they made the designs not only less interesting, but more conventionally attractive. not that they weren't beautiful before of course, but Demeter's wrinkles are toned down. Afrodite has entirely new features that gives her the face of an Instagram model ( her nose and lips in particular). Everyone is standing more or less in the same pose, their faces less bold and expressive. The colors are less vibrant and they all? Look paler?
I really liked the heavy black contrasting lines of the first game it lent them gravitas and presence on screen, and the new ones look duller, less exciting... There is a lot that just doesn't work for me, but hey! Im not the one who decides what's good thank the gods :-))
this is comin kinda late but when i think abt yr art im like 'yea thats the artist with an insanely unique and gorgeous ability with color and texture, i'd know their work anywhere'
this has been sitting in my askbox for so long so i could clutch it to my chest like a perfumed loveletter to give me courage to get through my horrible little life. i love you
It would've been rly cool if it was my first proper queer realisation but brokeback mountain kind of really fundamentally changed me as a queer. I wish I could talk about it but every time I choke up. I share the sentiment, I like all the cowboy aus but itd be nice to yk engage with it as less a dress up base and more of a piece of art
It's so much more than a movie, it's a gorgeously crafted terrible story of how homophobia destroys all of us, how its violence and hate ruins all of us....it's heartbreaking and human, and about a loss that's incredibly hard to understand... I'm so incredibly grateful I didn't watch it until I was an adult, until I could fully untangle the impact of its tragedy
It's a movie so sad and beautiful it can be difficult to handle, like it's a blooming cacti that will hurt us as we hold it up for further examination....
