No matter what state you may be in, I'm glad you're still around
Me too! Life might be hard but it's so fucking worth living, I'm grateful Im still here!
Some good news is that I've gotten beefier from all the fysiotheraphy and the weather allows me to go hiking again! I don't have any paralysis in my body anymore but the nerve damage makes walking feel kind of weird and unsymmetrical but I can still go up the mountain! Which is huge! ( The accomplishment that is - the mountain itself is medium)
how is your healing journey going? so happy to see you continue to make art. i hope it brings you joy even if there are frustrations. ❤️🩹
Hello anon! Thank you for thinking of me and my health, its been a very busy start of 26 for me!
Its been 2 and a half years since the stroke and about a year since my dystonia diagnosis and the start of that treatment - botox to forcibly shut off the constant twitching in my left hand- and progress is slow these days.
I'm wrapping up the first year of my degree in visual communication this June, with some minor stumbles- and I'm very proud of myself! I'm also very very tired.
By all means It's kind of insane that it hasn't been longer since the stroke! I wrote my motivation letter and put together my university portfolio while I was at rehabilitation for my brain damage and injury last april, at a time when I was very lost and alone. Finding a direction I might attempt to follow with my newfound disabilities felt like a way to regain some control of my life.
But I can't reccomended treating yourself the way I have. I have s chronic exhaustion and sensory issues that make navigating life at university difficult. More then ever i am forcibly isolated from the people around me. I can't go to many public places- I don't have the energy to withstand prolonged social situations. Im isolated from my peers in invisible yet tangible ways.
Im very upfront about my situation! My blindness, my uncooperative left arm, my chronic exhaustion- but I know that I also don't look injured. I don't act like I'm injured! I don't want my brain damage to define who I am- but I'm slowly coming to terms that I can't will away my disability. Its a permanent part of me. A huge chunk of mu brain matter is dead. I won't get it back.
I also don't know if the dystonia will get better. I have improved! But its a constant cycle of grief where you never fully make peace with your situation because it might still improve? My peripheral vision on the left is gone. Nothing to be done about it but find ways to live with that. Its final and I honestly prefer that certainty.
So sadly I still struggle with it. I wish I were better at handling my loss.
I like to say that the stroke ruined my life but it did not ruin who I am. I won't let it. I want to live and I want to make something beautiful.
Hopefully I'll have the chance to make as something that makes me daily struggle feel worth it.
In the meantime I'll be as happy as I possibly can as defiance and resistance. I'm truly so grateful to still be alive
“So now you know the answer to my riddle? Face smudged with ashes, but it’s not chimney sweep. Hat with feather and crossbow, but it’s not hunstman. Dress embroidered in silver, but she’s not a Princess. Who is it?”
Tři oříšky pro Popelku (1973), dir. by Václav Vorlíček.
I based this on the first plants I saw popping up as the weather changed - I wanted the wallpaper set to feel like carrying the first days of spring in your pocket!
The plants shown here are Carolina cranesbill, common chickweed, and southern chervil! I'm interested to know what plants come to mind when you think about springtime in your area?
my character and illustration commissions are open again (5 slots). check my “commissions” tag for past samples. the base cost for a single character comm is 275 usd.
YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY. YOU CAN HANDLE CRITIQUE. YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY. YOU CAN EMBRACE BEING TOLD YOU WERE WRONG. YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY. YOU CAN ACCOMPLISH UNPLEASANT TASKS. YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY. YOU CAN DELIVER DISAPPOINTING NEWS. YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY. YOU KNOW HOW TO BE DISAGREED WITH. YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY. YOU CAN BE CORRECTED. YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY. YOU CAN BE TOLD YOU MESSED UP. YOU ARE A REGULAR GUY. YOU ARE ABLE TO DO HARD THINGS.
Do you have any idea how telling it is that you saw me make fun of someone who was claiming that it's unfair to ask Small Independent Artists And Creators to answer questions like "where is this getting made" and "how much are the people who actually physically make these things getting paid" to make sure they're not relying on outsourced slave labor for their merch campaigns and you immediately jumped to my inbox to be all like "uhm what the are Artists™ supposed to do then"?
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