Mood: scared, stressed, anxious, and of course the default TIRED Woopsies, I missed a day of entry, but that's because I was too busy studying for my upcoming exams. I'm so nervous, and scared, I think I'm going to fail. No matter what I do, I just don't understand organic chemistry!!!! Each exam I do, I end up doing worse and worse...FML. Hopefully I'll do better tonight during my study session and tomorrow morning/afternoon since my exam isn't until 3:30pm. AND THEN I'M DONE AND FREE...until I find out I did a crap job...until then, I'll keep you updated. (: But today I have an exam and I think I'll be okay, went over the material and I believe I have a good grasp on it all...until she throws those curve balls and I end up missing by a mile! So yesterday I went for a ride with my friend, TC, in his loaner car while he was getting his fixed, and I'm glad he invited me! Taking a ride in a +$100,000 Audi! HOOOOLY, was it worth being woken up at 9am when I went to bed at 3:30am? TOTALLY. It was very spacious and IT HAD BUILT IN MASSAGE SEATS. It'd be amazing to be rich...but then again I wouldn't feel safe driving around in a car that expensive...I wouldn't want to park it anywhere without putting up a force field or something...just toooooooo expensive, but it was a nice experience. It was so high tech and fancy, oh man, I was like...a car from 2030! or maybe I'm just really techy challenged, haha. I think it can be described like giving your great great grandparents an iphone. HAHA. or at least that's what it was like to me. There were so many buttons that did so many things, so man categories and choices and functions and gadgets. GEEEZ. But it was very very cool none the less. I felt like a celebrity sitting in the car :D I guess you're wondering how things are going with that guy and me, I'm not sure where we are anymore. I want to let him back into my life, but would that be a mistake? What if I do and only end up getting hurt again, I'm tired of trying to mend my heart after each break...but it's unbearable living without him; Can't live with or without him, eh? haha gosh this blows. I just don't know what to do anymore. Maybe I should just leave it as it is and deal with it after I come back for my vacation...? But I wanted to see him before I left..I guess that isn't going to happen...:/ I guess we'll have to see how I feel when I get back; he did send me a message saying we could go back to the way we were, but will it really? I think there's always going to be a wall between us, an awkward tension, a weird unconformable feel...or maybe I'm just over thinking things. What if I come back and I want to patch things up, but he doesn't any more? Sigh, I should stop scaring myself. Besides the point VACATION IN 8 DAYS. Boy am I psyched. Going to three different cities in 3 weeks. Shanghai, Bangkok and Hong Kong! Oh wait I'm stopping by in Macau too! I'm wondering if I'm gonna need to bring my netbook to transfer off all my photos...or I just need to find a bigger memory card for my camera; haha. I'm still on the look out for a nice pair of comfortable walker shoes that's breathable! And a really nice bandeau bathing suit, there's one at Victoria Secret that I'm totally obsessed with but...it's $50 bucks! GAHH, so expensive. I'm wondering if I'll even need to bring a bathing suit on my trip....:$ Anyways during that time I'm gonna be hand writing my entries since I'm not a 100% sure I'll be getting internet..so I gotta go find a nice journal. Prepare to read my awful handwriting my fellow readers. :D Well actually you won't be seeing it for like 3 weeks, and then when I'm back I'll probably be maaaaaaaaaaaaaaajjoooorrr jet lagged, so it'll be a couple more days, haha. (: Did you notice I like to make backward happy faces? Rather than the typical :) i make the (:? I'm different, I don't mind. AND YOU CAN'T JUDGE ME FOR IT, cause if you do, I'll just punch you super hard, haha. I'm not exactly sure what well I want to write at this moment because I feel like I'm going to pass out, so until my next entry. Toodles, D.