New hashtag for stories of abuse and ableism in hospital emergency rooms
#emergencyroomableism
I was originally going to go for ERableism, but I figured that ER might not be an immediately recognized abbreviation in the hashtag context. It also took me a little time to post this because I’m remembering more and more instances of this happening to me and it’s been unsettling.
I’m a pain patient and recently I got kicked out of an ER. I have acid reflux and a herniated disk among other things. When my acid reflux starts cyclical vomiting, if I don’t address the pain in my upper stomach, the rest won’t follow. In the past they treated me that way, usually with dilaudid, especially the one time I was admitted for 3 days. Now it’s their standard treatment for stomach issues, doesn’t matter I’ve been treated with dilaudid like 5 times before for this same thing. NOW it’s a problem.
Then after treating me with what they wanted to, I ask for a second round because it wasn’t enough. They said they would talk about it then came back with discharge papers. They looked me up on some registry and found out I was patient at pain clinic and signed a paper saying no RXs for pain relief from other doctors and so they couldn’t treat me. When I told my doctor he said that’s ridiculous, the contract is for other doctors not the ER!
So why did they kick me out? The pain in my stomach comes in waves, and when it’s at its worst it’s a 10, and you will do anything, and I mean anything to make it go down. I sometimes NEEDED to vomit to get the pain down 10 minutes of relief. They caught me putting my finger down my throat, and I guess assumed I was always making myself throw up, I was not, and that it was to get pain meds, it was not. I needed pain relief, I was desperate, the dose of meds was wearing off and they were hemming and hawing about more diclofenac and stomach meds.
To anyone wondering why I would do something that gives the impression of a drug seeker, all I have to say is Level 10 pain on and off for hours, nothing else helps, what the fuck would you do?
So now I’m afraid to go back to this ER. This is the same ER with the doctor that almost killed me when I was 8 by reading my x-rays wrong then verrbally attacked my mom for not having insurance.
Same ER that when I had that back spasm so bad I couldn’t stand up straight, the nurse wouldn’t let me use the wheelchair to go the front door. “If your back is that bad you’d be admitted” I was discharged bc I had a clean x-ray and my state of mind made me recall symptoms wrong. I should have answered yes to some things but forgot, that would have hinted at my as of then undiagnosed herniated disk. In any case, I was discharged with meds and to follow up with my doctor. I clearly couldn’t stand up straight, but no, I couldn’t use a wheelchair to go the exit and wait for my ride home. That was fucking cruel. Took two more months to diagnosed my degenerative disk disease when the spasm went away but the pain did not.
I’m scared now that if I need to go to that ER which is too conveniently close to go elsewhere, that they won’t treat me. I’ve never felt more humiliated and hurt than what they did to me that day they kicked me out. I had received enough IV fluids to rehydrate that I took 200mg of tramadol all at once and somehow got through it.
I’m scared to go back to a place that’s supposed to help me in my time of medical need, and that’s fucked up!
So now you’ve read my story, please feel free to reply or make your own post using the hastag:
#Emergencyroomableism












