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Come on, superman

say your stupid line

My Poetic Musings

I would let your blade

Sink into my heart

Only if you promise

To kiss it before you do

And I would let you drown me

On the tainted lies that left your lips

I would let you rip my heart to shreds

With the same old blunt blade

To choke me

with the same hand that fed me

At the altar

Where you vowed to love me-

Till death do us part

Was all you whispered

Yet I didn't dream of you being

The one to pierce my heart

I can still taste your betrayal

On my tongue

Yet I drink the taste of it

And again, I am at the altar

Where we first locked

Our eyes upon

But this time, I can only let you go

like the blood seeping out the wounds

you caused

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Hallucinations of a broken man

My Poetic Musings

Your name still rings on my ears

While my body trembles at the memories of us

You held my Hand like

We are meant to be

Just I lost the sense on how to walk alone

You left my hand

And all I could do was crawl to you

Like lonely little child

With no one to love

No one to hold

You knew I could love you

But never survive you

Yet you won’t acknowledge

The wounds you caused

While I hope it vanishes

Unlike the memories of us

Again, I am at our house of memories

My eyes blurry with the past

Dried wounds and bled out heart

Is all I even have on my arms

Wondering how I ended up here again

Author’s note: In this poem the narrator suffers from short term memory loss who hallucinates about his past lover a lot

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Judas

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And then i go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like i love you

My Poetic Musings

You weigh heavier on my heart, than

the thirty coins on my pouch

The price I sold you for-

Why spare peter

From the trembling denial from his lips

But call me a sinner

For following the destiny, you wove me into

Lord, you call me to herd sheep with you

While this guilt of mine rip me apart

These priests call me sinful

But all I did was for love

Why didn’t you make me good enough’

So, I could have believed you loved me

Why didn’t you make me worthy enough

To believe that you were in love with me

This blasphemy blooms on my chest

Till my mouthy aches for your mouth

As you depart, all I could do is

Bleed and bleed upon it

I followed the demise you wove me into

And got punished-

If you are my creator

Shouldn’t you be the bearer of my sins?

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Unfulfilled Promises and Unanswered Texts

My Poetic Musings

I keep staring at the last text

You sent me

On November 22nd,

You promised that I would be loved “forever”

I didn’t dare question you

Too scared that you might take it back

On November 27th,

You told me your favourite colour, Purple

For you, I would have painted myself in it

Just so you would look at me

A little longer

I remember it till now

How you casually traced

My calloused fingertips

How you smiled too brightly at me

Your eyes crinkling of love

How you talked about the series

I desperately hated

And how I let you talk

Your eyes focused,

Hands on air,

About some character

I never bothered to listen

But bask in the glory

Of your happiness

How easily you laughed

Like I deserve to see it

And when I peeled these walls

I constructed over the years

You stopped

Suddenly, an abrupt end

To the story I was willing to write

Was crumbled before I took the pen

I scrolled back to the text

When was the last time

You smiled at me

Like I was your world?

You came like a beautiful storm

On my peaceful small town

And destroyed a part of me

And... I am not willing to fix it

Maybe in another lifetime

On November 22nd,

I would stop you

Before you promise to love me

So, I won’t drown in this heartache

Perhaps I would pull my hand

Before you hold it

or paint my self, on purple

the colour I hated the most

Or watch all the series

You told me to

But if you asked

I would paint our houses on purple

Soak myself on it,

And watch all the series

Even if the character

Isn't registered on my head

But you never asked

And I am still staring at the last text sent

“I miss you”

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Hanahaki Disease

My Poetic Musings

My lungs suffocate

For a love I always longed for

The eyes which tear up

At the whisper of your name

Pretty little flowers blooming

Across my ribs

Thorns crawling like money plants

Across my heart

Squeezing the love, I have for you

If flowers are what you desire

Then I would pluck it

With my thorns embedded fingers

from my aching ribs’

and bestow you them

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PERHAPS FOREVER IS MEANT ONLY FOR MEMORIES

My Poetic Musings

At this burning altar

I kneel before God

To search for the love

Which used to reside in my heart

Yet you are nowhere to be found

I beg at the feet of lifeless statue in front of me,

“If god has eyes, why won’t he acknowledge my sufferings”

Yet no one replies back

Just a ghost of the breeze

I fist the crumbling statues ashes

our memories fades

like it never existed

of all the false promises he wove through my heart

this one was knotted the deepest

You knew, I could always love you

But not survive your absence

Yet I am here willing to burn

And still, you won’t acknowledge

Or return to me  

My eyes sting of tears

As God was nowhere to be found

Even at his own altar

Perhaps, if there’s another lifetime

I am willing to burn again

Only if you promise

To stay with me through it

If there is another lifetime

Perhaps God would see me too

p.s (incase of any confusion , in this poem there are three people the narrator , the narrators lover , god)

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Grief is a drying pond

And i am drowning on it

My Poetic Musings

Tell me dearie

When would I let go of this pain?

I am still staring at the grave you left me for

Hoping that you would emerge as someone

so, I could stumble upon the

what once was our home

When would I let go of this delusion?

That one day you might not come back

And won't knock upon this home

I’ve been living for years

With our fading memories

When would I stop waiting for your arrival?

like a sick child

devoid of any love- on this heart

For I, cradled this sorrow you left me

As a son, and sung lullabies-

Only to stand upon your grave

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CAIN AND ABEL

On another au (as lovers)

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My Poetic Musings

You tell me that you know me by my silence

Yet you never asked

On what I kept buried for you

You said, you knew me by my silence

But not the ache stitched to my heart

Once again, you take my silence for granted

While I put a part of myself

At this burning stake

To please you for the warmth in cold nights

God calls me a sinner, Abel

But you were the sweetest sin

I ever got drunk on

I do not wish to be just your keeper

Yet I keep on getting addicted

To these drunken sins of mine

Abel, I knew you

Just by your silence,

Just by your touch alone

And this jealousy might destroy me

More than how you do

So, when I kneel before you

You must forgive me

For I can’t destroy my heart

Which beats for you

I must destroy you within it

I plead you to love me

Even after this blade of mine opens your chest

So, when I beg again

Forgive me

I loved you, even before God

And even after his absence too

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