#emetophobia rant

[the-petrichor-archives]

Fuck fuck fuck stupid emetophobia attack

(TW Emetophobia)

I'm very emetophobic. Have been since I was at least 6. So over a decade. It's been a lot worse in the last few years because I've developed chronic nausea as a result of what I, and some of my teachers, believe to be POTS (These teachers have POTS). Someone in my family threw up last night multiple times and it's an understatement to say I panicked. I sat awake in my room until like 4am reading, with my ear defenders on and music playing. Door shut. I can't go in the bathroom because that's where they were. I had to get a new toothbrush just to brush my teeth. I'm walking to school now on less than 3 hours of sleep and I have to be there until 8pm. Fml.

[once-upon-the-moon]

Trigger Warning: Emetophobia

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Why is it f***ing impossible to find any kind of emetophobia comfort on this app or pretty much anywhere else? I know how helpful it is for people to vent about emetophobic experiences (I do it myself too) but it feels like there’s nowhere to go that won’t just add to the fear, and it’s already hard enough dealing with this on my own every day.

I feel like my only option is to read the scary posts anyway and use the fact that all it does is make me more stressed, but not sick, as “comfort”. Maybe that’s helpful in its own way, but it sure as sh*t ain’t actually comforting.