A beach day, my dad and the twins birthday
We don't live on the beach anymore but the beach is right around the corner. So we do have reguarly beach days where we all, or little groups of us, go to the beach and swim there. I love that I have a safe home while also being able to go swim in the ocean. The twins love it too and always begg me to go to the beach. I gave in today. But I kept a close eye on them since they are still little.
We celebrated their birthday shortly after. The are growing up so fast! Judah and Martin are twisn but are unique. Judah is such an angel, always doing good for the people around him. Martin is a bit more sensitive but he does love to do outdoorsy things. They love to play together all the time! Even, homework is done together.
We heard from my fathers passing away. He wasn't that old but not in good health. He died from a heart attack. Leaving my mother alone after more then 40 years of marriage. While I didn't have contact with them for years, a piece of my heart broke hearing about my fathers death. I went to the funeral with Juls and the childeren. I had not seen most of my brothers and sisters for years just like my parents. It was nice to chat with Juanna and James, they where close in age to me. I also talked with Jackson. He is more then 6 years younger, he was just a teenager when I left my parents home. But now, years later, we had much more in common.
Ofcourse I talked with Jedidiah. Since he left my parents home because he had a relationship with a man, now his husband, most of my siblings still look at him very upset. They think, just like my parents, that he should divorce his husband and follow therapy from church. Ofcourse that wouldn't help at all. Because of that he left Anthony and their daughter at home.
It hurts that my father is no longer with us but him being alive and not accepting my lifestyle did also hurt. I wish he could have accepted me and Jedidiah the way we are. My mother is glad I'm married now and doesn't worry anymore about me. She didn't have to worry for me at all, I'm fine for years. But it does feel good to be able to have a bit of a relationship with my mother again after so many years.
