Holiday Message
Hello, everyone. I’ve once again been though a rather rough patch, especially over the weekend. I am not going to put this under a read more, one because this is a rather short post, but I don’t have anything to hide.
I was hospitalized over the weekend due to my depression hitting a very, very heavy low. I barely ate anything for the entire week, and I spent all that time isolating myself. I also had some incidences happen in the hospital that I’d rather not go into detail over, but all I will say is I met with my psychiatrist at the same day I left the hospital, and I’ve now been diagnosed with psychosis as a result of my depression and manic depression, so now I’ve been prescribed with an antipsychotic for that. It’s definitely not fun, but I’m doing what I can.
So, this is a holiday message for a special someone, @emmettshearer / @emmbutt . I just want to say, thank you so much. Thank you for believing it was appropriate to call a person with mental illness crazy on social media - someone that you knew suffered with mental illness. Thank you for saying that it was unfortunate that you kissed someone with a smaller body type than you wanted. Thank you for telling someone with a low sense of self-worth that they are “irrelevant”, that you “don’t owe them anything”, that “someone with anxieties like them isn’t wanted by you”, that you thought it was appropriate to tell that person to “shut the fuck up”, and that it’s also okay to completely ignore and invalidate that person. Thank you for your comments that have now been added to the dictionary of the evil, horrible voice that this person has had in their head for so long, calling them worthless, garbage, and a monster, now with the added words of “toy”, “irrelevant”, and “not my problem”. Thank you for saying the exact things that someone with both mental illness and low self-worth has never had told to them and hoped they would never hear. That they are not wanted because of the illnesses that they do not have complete control over. Thank you for claiming to be an ally of those kinds of people, even though you called them one of them crazy, taking someone’s deepest fears and insecurities and vocalizing them. Thank you for fragmenting this person’s family life. Thank you for hurting someone and then immediately running away like a coward and refusing to say anything, because like a bully, you cannot take back a fraction of the toxicity that you put out to people without throwing a tantrum. Because apparently, this person is not worth your time and is beneath any efforts for you to give a damn, instead expressing false apologies to others without ever expressing that to the person that was actually hurt.
Thank you, and a very, very Happy Holidays to you!
