「スーパーエゴ」 @helianthaeus - Tumblr Blog

A message for You.

(http://vocaroo.com/i/s1GY0jy8XO3P Continuation to my video. Sorry if I sound angry.)

One year.

Hmmm.

A new video. Sorry for the absence. Just getting some things out.

Trauma often messes with one’s ability to say “no”.

You either consciously or subconsciously think, “I don’t want to hurt this person’s feelings” or “If I say no, then they’ll hurt me” or “It won’t really be that bad” or “I can handle this” or “I need to do this to prove myself” or “I deserve this”, or you forget that “no” is even an option.

It’s still not your fault if you didn’t say “no”, even if you think maybe you could have. It’s still not your fault. You didn’t deserve what happened to you and you didn’t bring it upon yourself. It was never your fault.

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#僕に

it's good that you're journaling your how youre feeling in your videos, but they can be heartbreaking to watch. :( Please get better soon!!

I’m sorry about that, anon... I assure you my goal isn’t to break any hearts, but I’m just expressing how I’m honestly feeling, which is usually... not good. I’ve been feeling particularly depressed and very down for the past couple weeks, so there is that on top of everything else.

I appreciate you wishing me to get better, though. I don’t think I can really guarantee I’ll get better soon, but I’ll try.

#Anonymous