#emmy rant

[emmyrestlesssoul]

Rant/Vent under the cut. Feel free to ignore...

I am very intentional with the people in my life. I am open and honest and I have spent years (and still am) working on communication and being better at letting them know what I'm expecting of them and in what capacity I want them in my life. I tell them how much I love them I send good morning texts, I check in. I let them know I value them and the space they hold in my life. I don't think it's fair I'm always the one second guessing the value and space they have for me. I am tired and heartbroken at always finding myself being the odd one out. Never the best friend, never the favorite, but always the one willing to give with both hands and ending up with nothing.

And you know what I am fucking done. I am fucking fantastic, I am awesome and I have SO much to give, if you want to be in my life you better fucking show me because I am done being the only one reaching out and maintaining contact. I am tired of being consistently and systematically disappointed by people who say one thing and act in a completely different way. I DESERVE better, I deserve reciprocity and a minimum of respect.

If you can't/won't/aren't willing to give me that then by all means get out and let me live my life without having to worry about people that don't find me "worthy"

[emmsiplier]

hello! have to update my intro, it will happen countless more times.

call me vex or emmy (you may spell it however you’d like. i really don’t care. i get lots of spellings.) im 18.

i use they/them pronouns unless it is comedic to gender me otherwise. i will also accept she/her.

i draw! speaking of: no criticism unless you’re a dear friend of mine. thanks!

i have many interests, such as: books (classics and sci fi books that you’ve never heard of); red dead redemption 2; destiny 2; call of duty (modern warfare I-III); forensics and other morbidities; horror and various other things! don’t be afraid to ask, i promise i don’t bite.

auDHD (99.999999% positive).

my asks are open.

not sure what else to add!

[emilytopaz]

You look like a 12 year old furry in that video

thanks dragon nerd ::T *hangs head in disappointment* I’m so short

[emilytopaz]

Jigglypuff. Because you are short, cute, and your temper, Ms. Road rage.

Ahhh thanks! And flip off the sheriff ONE TIME! Okay yeah I have anger problems that come out sometimes

[emilytopaz]

Each yarn ball was a dollar a bit expensive for yard sale yarn but definitely worth it. I met up with a lady who moved, she ran a yarn store. We would talk and crochet while her son and my little brother played baseball. (You can tell I have a color scheme)

[edit] also the purple unlabeled yarn reminds me of amethyst in cat form especially in person (the color is a bit off)

[emilytopaz]

Dresses modeled by a work-in-progress bear part 2. I got these at a yard sale the purple one is really detailed and the yellow is modeled after Belle's dress I also got all of this for only $10s I am so happy (The trash bag is what carried them home in)

[emilytopaz]

I used John and an in progress bear to model dresses I bought yard saling part 1 The little round things on the red white and blue dress are actually stars and the apron doesn't come with a dress as far as I can tell.

[emilytopaz]

prt 3 of my senior trip to DC I literally ran to get some of these pictures because the tour group was late and it was cold. and I also regret not getting the dorky looking reading light. it’s supposed to clip onto the bridge of your glassed. I could have spent a lot longer exploring the national library instead of just standing there while my group stared at a really old bible.