I can't describe the feelings that I have right now as I back read all of my "relationship" posts here. I'm just so happy because I am able to overcome those feelings and I'm happy being with myself. Sometimes, we just need to release those thoughts that we have so it will help us moved on and even not to make a first move in this confusing signals.
Actually, I just follow the instructions that helps me to be distant by him and it worked. It takes a lot of gut and patience to yourself in order for you to move on. But, trust the process. It really takes time. You cannot suppress it, just endure it. It's normal that we're feeling those heartaches. At the end of the day we are all human.
Our emotions make us human.
PS:
I'm very much thankful to tumblr that it helps me to carefree express all of my thoughts and even if it's too detailed.