3. Just a lonely, just a lonely, lonely, child "The princess cannot rule on her own..." The slanderous statement was spoken around a large oak table, echoed and agreed upon by the grave looking royal councilors that surrounded it. In the King's antechamber, they had gathered, to discuss the future of the kingdom and the throne while her father lay in his bed, guarded by physicians, and looked after by his wife. Death was imminent, that much they knew. And so, preparations had begun to ensure the kingdom would be well preserved in the hands of a successor. For Kendra, the role had not been something she'd been groomed for, not from the start as a young prince might've been. For years, there was anticipation that she'd be joined by a younger brother, a longed for son that would carry on the family name and grow into the throne that would be left for him upon the King's death. But years went by, and Kendra remained, the princess, the sole heir, and as she came to expect, the next Queen of the kingdom. Truthfully, she'd had her reservations. It was quite the undertaking, she knew, for anyone, much less someone who didn't anticipate the heavy weight of such a crown. And then, there was the resistance that she met, not for being unprepared, but for being a girl. A mere daughter, they had said, could not possibly be expected to carry on as a son might have. So feeble were the minds of these aged men, wizened with their grey and white beards, but blinded to the potential of the young woman standing before them. "I assure you, my lords, my daughter is as well equipped as any to handle the responsibilities of the task at hand." It was her mother's voice that spoke now, standing in the doorway as she addressed them, picturesque in her manner, with her head held high and her hands clasped in front of her. They bowed their heads to acknowledge their sovereign, though immediately, one spoke to the contrary, begging her pardon before he even started. "Your majesty, she is a fine young lady, but young, nevertheless, and it may prove too much for one so delicate as a daughter. Surely, /surely/ you can see the merits in deferring the throne to a male." "What I can see, sir," her mother had responded coolly, "is my husband's trusted advisors consorting to deny my daughter her crown." Kendra remained silent as she watched the scene, hardly able to hide her amusement at the mens' indignant huffs that followed, but her mother continued, before giving any of them the chance to respond. "Would you say I am an incompetent regent, my lord?" She had posed the question carefully, leaving the men at a loss for an answer as she took purposeful strides around the table, one hand across her chest, the elbow of the other resting atop its hand while the other gestured casually with each word. "For I, have served in my husband's stead, in times of chaos, and battle, and I do believe, I have served the kingdom well." There was a murmur of agreement from the men this time, lest they insult their Queen. Though none of them could argue her mother's ability to take control when it was necessary. More than once, the King had been called away for duty, and more than once, her mother had taken his place, taking it upon herself to rule the kingdom in his stead. Kendra had watched each time as the people revered her. Both kind and intelligent, but fierce when necessary, she was, to her daughter, the epitome of what a Queen should be. And never more than now, as she addressed this table of men, using every method at her disposal to secure her daughter her rightful place on the throne. "I find it very hard to believe that my daughter would be any less suited to the station than I..." Her tone almost begged them to argue. There, her mother stood, pausing as she took a moment to glance around the table, leaving no room for their nonsense before she carried on. "Nor do I believe that my lords have purposely overlooked the advantage of a Queen on the throne... For it serves as one of the swiftest ways to gain an alliance. Surely /you/ can see the merits of garnering a marriage between a prince, with power. Rather than a King marrying a lady, who will inherit no property, no titles, and no... Oh, yes, armies, navies, or fortunes." She ticked off the list with a finger for each, as if they'd only now crossed her mind, her smile bordering on smug before she took another few paces with Kendra looking on. Again, the men whispered amongst themselves, looking from one to other, still unable to argue, though one did offer a few words in defense. "Then Your Majesty would not be opposed to a marriage for the princess, before she would become Queen." Her mother glanced towards her then, and Kendra could see her jaw clenching, even from where she stood, though she was sure it was lost on the advisors. "I hardly find that a requirement for wearing a crown, my lords," her mother countered easily. "Many a King have sat before my husband, unmarried and relatively competent in their rule." The tone wasn't insulting. Just cynical, though paired with a dazzling smile to detract from it. "So, unless you mean to imply that the crown is too heavy for my daughter, and expect her /husband/ to wear it for her instead, I don't see how that would be a likely solution..." The men's wary glances were easily noted. "My lords," her mother's smile remained, her voice taking on a softer, dulcet tone now, "what assurance can I give you that our princess is willing and capable to continue our King's legacy? She is as well educated as any prince, as well received in the land, by the court, and the common people. And with the guidance the King's council..." she'd resorted to flattery, and Kendra's lips tugged at the corners with a smirk the threatened to form, "How could any monarch be steered in the wrong direction with such wise advisors at her disposal?" The way her mother spoke, she was sure there was nothing they could say to prevent her from achieving her goal. There was less and less to be argued, and more and more to her advantage, in light of her mother's debate. With their support, it would make this much easier. She'd have the throne, the crown, the kingdom. Her birthright. But there, in the doorway of her father's chamber, having stood quietly, watching the display with a set of dark, narrowed eyes, was the King's oldest confidante, his head advisor. He stood silent another moment, just long enough for the table of nobles to agree on Kendra's rightful inheritance before he took a full step into the room, his expression, before showing only mild concern, now morphing to one of almost smug satisfaction. "I'm afraid that won't be necessary..." His voice cut through the chatter with ease, without even a single glance to her as his ominous gaze rested on her mother. "While your efforts are admirable, madame, I regret to inform you that your daughter will not be following in your footsteps. She will not rule here." The Queen did not falter. With her chin lifting slightly, and a single hand on her hip, she took a step forward towards the man, as if humoring his argument, three simple words spoken in a tone that hinted at challenge. "And why not." The inflection was implied as she addressed him, her elegant brows lifting questioningly. In response, the man held out a single sheet of parchment. Even from where she stood, Kendra recognized the signature at the bottom, the royal seal that accompanied the decree. "Because the King did not wish it." Kendra could feel her heart in her throat, beating wildly as she viewed the exchange. Her mother's approach was swift, snatching up the parchment without a word, and the room fell silent as she read it, her eyes widening with outrage as her gaze moved down the page, her head shaking. "No. Our daughter is the only heir, why should he deny her now?" She handed the decree back, her expression one of disgust before her tone turned accusing. "This is your doing, not his. If I find that you've forced his hand in this matter..." She was already moving towards the door of the King's chambers. "Once I've spoken to my husband..." "The King is dead, my lady." Kendra could've sworn time stood still in that moment, as if time itself wanted to capture it. Instead, it would remain forever embedded in her mind. The way her mother's footsteps had stopped short of the doorway, the way her head bowed as a hand came over her mouth. She stood and turned, and Kendra would never forget the expression she wore when her mother looked to her, for she'd never seen her mother look defeated... It was in that moment that she truly realized what she was up against. What she'd lost. The King, her father, his favor, his faith in her... Signed away forever with the flourish of a quill. The weight of the realization threatened to crush her, and it took more strength than she knew she had to force herself out of the room then, mustering as much dignity as a discarded princess could manage. Her footsteps were heavy as she returned to her chambers, dismissing her ladies with a single wave before she finally succumbed to the hopeless sobs she'd held in. It was a familiar dream. A familiar feeling as she woke, her chest tight, gasping for breath as she sat up, wiping her cheeks free of the tears that had spilled in her sleep. Even now, the years that had passed since then did nothing to temper the sting of that day. Every wound, every emotion, felt as fresh as if it had happened only yesterday. For some time, she'd not dreamt of it. She'd not thought of it. Not dealt with it. But she knew better than to think it would ever truly cease to haunt her. It was a sobering thought as she finally caught the deep breath that had been eluding her. Always the same dream, always the same result... And always, she buried herself beneath the mounds of pillows upon her bed, hiding from the unforgiving, early morning daylight, taking slow, steady breaths until she finally fell back into a dreamless sleep. She'd need the rest to eventually face the day.