Real-time notes from holding a few days ago, edited to make them slightly more coherent than I was capable of being at the time:
Four hours since I last peed, drank one bottle of tea plus two bottles of water in the meantime (1.5 liters total). My bladder is so full and tight, and I can still feel it expanding as the liquid slowly pours in. It’s pushing and spreading a soft, insistent pain all through my pelvis.
I just felt a spasm and thought I might be about to leak so I rushed to the bathroom.
Now I’m sitting on the toilet and trying to keep my fingers steady enough to type, but the pain has gotten so much sharper. My bladder feels so heavy. Im going to start leaking any second. It’s right there, it’s going to come out, fuck—
I just squeezed myself hard and stopped a leak. I didn’t lose anything but it was so close. I’m just barely hanging on.
That was the first leak. Oh my god I have to pee so bad. I’m typing one handed so I can hold myself.
Oh my god I can’t hold it.
Leaking. Dribbling constantly.
Took hand away for a second and lost huge spurt.
Trying trying to hold its so hard I’m so full
Huge leak. It’s like my bladder just took full control of my muscles. Amazing feeling.
A few seconds reprieve. I can type with two hands again. I feel so warm and shaky.
That leak helped so much. Maybe that’s all my bladder needed, just to take the edge off. Maybe I could plug myself back up and pull up my pants and go back out of the bathroom. Imagine!
I’ve still got a massive balloon pushing into my stomach. I’ve got it back under control so I don’t feel like I’m going to start spraying everywhere uncontrollably, but I can still feel so much pressure. It’s amazing. Oh my god I love holding my pee so much. I’m going to hold it forever it feels so so good. Maybe I should go drink some more water to push myself back over the edge.
Never mind. Here we go back to spasming. I’m right back at the edge again.
Little dribble. Long dribble. My muscles exhausted.
Yeah I’m about to explode
No holding back once it starts next time.
It’s coming it’s coming it’s coming
No I stopped it. I can control the leaks. But it’s right there and it’s just constant spasms.
Fingers squeezing like a clamp, only way to keep control
Leak just shot out. Another one at the tip
Holding it back squeezing myself so hard
It feels incredible. Oh my fucking god, I’m never letting go of this pee. My bladder can just keep it all in forever.
Every single wave feels like that’s it and it’s all going to just come gushing out and I have to stop typing and squirm like crazy, but then it subsides and it’s just back to the pressure and the throbbing. Then I feel like I have control again and I start getting overconfident until the next spasm hits and I’m writhing and trying to strangle my urethra. This might just go on for hours
Nope. Never mind. Another giant leak, and then my bladder took over and said it had had enough. I just peed for about two minutes and there’s still a lot more in me but I’m so close to climax it’s cutting off the stream.
There’s just a little more pee in there exerting a soft pressure, and my bladder is so sensitive now that it feels amazing
I think I might have just melted my brain with how good that felt.
