Posts about doctors not wanting to be resuscitated when they die are trending. And how they want to make the family of the patient see that being resuscitated isn't a miracle but a punishment. I don't know how to feel because I've experienced a loved one die in front of me after 30 minutes of trying to save her. That was when I still hadn't seen and experienced how the resuscitation worked. To me then, it seemed so fast. Like they didn't do 'everything' they could and just gave up on my mom. Of course, I wanted my mom to live. I kept praying for God to extend her life. I didn't think about the finances or the state she will be in if God allowed it. Well, in the end, He didn't. I was heartbroken. I was shocked. I was angry. I was all emotions at once. I knew she would be in a coma for the rest of her life if she survived it, but still I wanted her. I gues that's how the relatives of the patients think. It's selfish, yes, but we really can't blame them if they'd rather have a person hooked to a machine than a corpse, if they'd rather stay at the hospital than at the cemetery. No matter how informed people get, when they're at that point when they have to decide to do 'everything' for their loved one, of course they'll say yes. I hope that more people that are part of the medical team would understand this. People aren't misinformed or stupid when they decide to go through the process of resuscitation, they are hopeful that despite the consequences we give them, their loved one will make it through.