#ennui?

[oleredacted]

Watching Thunderbolts* and I’m not sure if there’s a word or better articulation for the combo of boredom and depression that Yelena’s going through [apologies I reduced it to just that] but I find I have such a strong reaction to it, as if I feel seen.

It’s like in Megamind [lol] when Metro Man lets Megamind win and they both become bored or aimless [or that’s what caused Metro Man to quit]. Something about that trope in a film has always stuck with me.

Recently, Charli XCX has created a substack in which she’s shared similar thoughts regarding the album [and cultural moment/tour] brat. I find her cultural commentary interesting. Something about her feeling this way evokes an emotion in me, but I can’t quite put my finger on it.

Anywho…

[zabchan]

i need a word in some language somewhere thats like "the feeling you get when you wanna make a great polished piece of fanart but you've already drawn out all the fun bits"

[lmitations]

i feel worse today than i have in the past couple and it’s only 7am

[malocclusive]

I am so completely bored. I’m not even tired. I don’t want to nap, but I have a headache from clenching my jaw

I don’t even want to sew. I want the sewing to be done but I’m also just so fucking bored fjndskfm,

[theefrosty]

I know this is probably me adjusting to the new med, but I'm feeling so intensely empty and worthless that I can't fucking function. I'm not even looking forward to halloween.

[electronoyoungremora]

Drinking: The Metaphysical

The thing about drinking, for me, is that it has always allowed for the illusion that I’m Doing Something while, in fact, I’m Doing Nothing and Doing Nothing happens to be my natural comfortable disposition.

[divineem-blog-blog]

i am finding that i just do not have the urge to talk